cause I believe...

i think everyone, at some point, goes through that one moment where they think "my God, i can't do this."

but you know what? you can.

no matter how close you are to the edge,

no matter how badly you feel like giving up,

or think it's best to do so rather than have to put up with the pain - don't.

don't lose hope that things will get better.

don't give up, because there is someone out there who will make you smile in a way no one else ever could.

keep that glimmer of hope alive in your heart,

because someone is out there searching for your smile.

so wipe your tears and keep your head held high.

the (inside) story

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody?

You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy.

But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either.

There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand.

If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone.

People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was.

At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong

& there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer.

You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon

& that you will be able to be yourself again,

but until then all you can do is wait.

＊　＊　＊　＊　＊

Silly boy;

of course I like you.

It's because I like you that I don't want to be with you.

It's a complicated emotion.

You piss me off.

You piss me off a lot, everyday.

I can't even tell you how many times I’ve wanted to knock some sense into that big egoistic head of yours.

You push me to my limits and maybe even farther,

but this is what makes me so absolutely crazy about you.

Does that even make any sense at all?

Just one day, you & I will finish our unfinished business.

& maybe fall madly in love again.

Luxury Property in KL

The real-estate and property market is rising slowly in Malaysia and many of the real-estate and property agencies are all setting up websites to keep up with the technology we have. One of the websites I find quite interesting and useful would have to be Propwall.

Propwall is an online real-estate and property website which provides informative platform for those looking for house, condominium, apartment, office, shop lots and other properties. The website offer very detailed information about the properties. Personally, I think the website offers more luxury properties in KL as most of the ads I’ve browsed through are basically houses I probably can’t buy right now, nor rent, unless I hit the jackpot or something. No doubt, Propwall provides KL properties ads, as they have every section, from pictures (which is speak a thousand word compared to the word description), to the property detail & layout to the Analysis of the property as well. Besides KL, you can also search properties in your desired area using their search engine. Pretty impressive ey?

Overall, Propwall is very helpful and convenient especially nowadays as most of us don’t have time to roam around town looking for real estate. I remember browsing through their website looking for a house to rent as I was too lazy to drag my ass out of the house under the hot sun LOL :x

things that matter

Assignments/Presentations yet to due:

MC100 Group Task

MC100 Meeting Minutes

MC100 Resume/CV

MC100 Group Presentation

PSY105 Group Presentation

PSY105 Research Proposal (peer reviewED)

PSY113 Assignment 3

PSY113 Literature Review

PSY111 Lab Report

i believed

" I believed what you said,

But love doesn't have a meaning

When you hurt me so bad

Just threw it all away

You knew I was scared

To once more let you get that close to me

Despite what you did

I believed... "

-Melissa Smith

too many let down in a week

I forgotten how painful it feels now

everything basically feel the same

I am dying to fight all these

but...

it really doesn't matter anymore

when was the last time

you feel happy, for yourself?

I don't know

sometimes, there's just so much one can do
there are always restrictions pulling you back from what you really want


what can I say?


I tell myself everyday that my world don't revolve around you all the time
truth is, I lied.
my world is spinning, turning upside down and it's all for you.
then again, who am I to tell you all these?
last time I remembered, I screwed things up pretty badly.

I'm sorry.

maybe it is redemption month after all..

of cold, misty & good friends

the girls

the People

the boys (minus YZ)

teammates!

went Genting with the People on Friday

one night trip

initially they were suppose to come KL

something happened, oh well

had a blast with them :)

pictures are all up in facebook anyway.

feel free to check ! :)

for now, back to assignments.

goodbye *tears

If one day...

I were to die

will you remember me?

will you come to my funeral?

will you even know my name?

will you realise that I'm gone?

will you?

at times, I just feel like blasting my speakers to the max.

The loudness clearing up the background voices.

It is way more peaceful like that.

This whole situation is really draining all my energy.

I do not like to be stuck in between the past, wasting my life on this.

It is not worth it.

but there's just nothing much I can do.

&& assignments are piling up.

I'm really not sure how/what to do first at all.

EBSCOHOST is being a big bitch.

seriously.

I do not know how that damn thing even work

gotta figure them soon.

so many journals to read :(

You & I - Park Bom

No matter what happens

Even when the sky is falling down

I’ll promise you

That I’ll never let you go

Oh...Oh.. Oh... oh.. Oh... oh.. Yeah...

You, When I fell

you held me back up with an unfaltering gaze

And You, through those sad times

held my hands till the end of the world

I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you

But today, I am singing this song just for you

Tonight, within those two eyes and a smile

I can see the pains from protecting me

You and I together. It’s just feels so right

Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands

even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Our love has changed a bit by bit just like others

But don’t be sad

Hopefully I will be someone who you can trust like an old friend

and someone you can lean onto

I promise you that I’m be right here baby

I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you

But today, I am singing this song just for you

Tonight, within those two eyes

and smile I can see the pains from protecting me

You and I together. It’s just feels so right

Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands

even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

I close my eyes lightly whenever I feel lonely again

I no longer fear when your breath holds me

No one in the world can replace you

You are the only one in I’ll be there for you baby

You and I together, It’s just feels so right

Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

You and I together, don’t ever let go my hands

even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Just you and I

Forever and ever..

I really like this song now, the mv is cute.

Go search it up in Youtube if you haven't heard it.

ANYWAY, this is the TRANSLATIONed version of the lyrics.

it's really really cuteee! I like*

so...

so you wondered why? let me tell you why.

I'll screw up. I'll push you away if we're getting too close. I won't trust you until you've proven yourself. I get hurt easily and take a lot of things personally. But I'll love you with everything I have, and if that isn't enough, then I'm not enough.

what say you?

I burnt myself.
I couldn't control it.
It was the irresistible feeling of not knowing what will happen next.
the burning sensation, the adrenaline rush that makes you run for it.


I never thought I'd.
oh well

the bus not taken

done with Research Methodology paper (well, just for midterms)

wasn't very good, seriously

I think I'm slowly getting used to ... not doing well wtf

but I mean seriously, MCQs aren't as easy as it sound

there are four or five close choices, super close, some even sound the same

today was unbearable, seriously.

walked from the main block to wisma, literally, walked, with LEGS wtf

just the right time to walk, right?

7.50 am : reaches main block bus stop, small HELP shuttle bus drove off but there are still a lot of students waiting.

8.00 am : HELP shuttle bus, the big yellow school bus, came, everyone rushed to it, couldn't be bothered to force myself with 80++ over students there

8.05 am : mini HELP shuttle bus arrived, it's so small it can only fit 25 max! couldn't get up the bus either.

8.08 am : Sof & Cassandra suggested we might as well just walk to class, since the waiting was unbearable and there were more students coming... blah

8.15 am : walked out of the main block from the FRONT GATE.

8.20 am : walked passed ESSO & Jes' place

8.25 am : walked passed Batai Hostel

8.30 am : saw Manulife building & HP Tower, almost liked you found a puddle of water in the desert, yes, it is that bad

8.35 am : climbed up the stairs to reach KPD block & walked to Wisma HELP, saw the big fat ugly yellow HELP shuttle bus passed by

8.40 am : reached the exam room, was 10 minutes late, was so soaked in sweat, my whole hair (which I just washed earlier in the morning) was wet like as if I just washed it, wtf

super FML moment

& did I mention when we walked, we kept walking uphill & there's no downhill?

it's not that steep but it is freaking tiring, for me laaaa

I have not even ate breakfast yet that time :(

now I appreciate the shuttle buses in HELP & the bus drivers so much.

I promise I'll be good next time & say more thank yous IF you(s) fetch me :P

Anyway, gotta crash now, so tired, my back is aching.

I have MC100 to study & PSY113 essay pending, due tomorrow!

DUE TOMORROW, who stupidly have assignment due the day before exam :(

then again, it's different subject so yeah, blah :(

have a gooood day everyone! *wavessss*

is it You?

To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance.

To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you.

To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair.

To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple.

To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand.

To never look away. And never, never, to forget

I've been playing with fire too much.

I think I accidentally burnt myself in the course.

One moment, I'm perfectly fine, & another, I'm all distracted.

This time reminds me of... every other time

I know it's probably the wrong time to tell you this, but I just want you to know that if you ever need me, I'll always be here for you. All you have to do is ask.

Nothing means more to me than what we share, no one in this world can ever compare.

Desperately

Something 'bout the way you looked at me

Made me think for a moment,

That maybe we were meant to be

Living our lives seperately

And it's strange that things change

But not me wanting you so desperately

Oh why can't I ignore it?

I keep giving it in but I should know better

'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me

And it's strange that things change

But not me wanting you so desperately

You looked my way and said "you frustrate me"

Like you're thinking of lines and times

When you and I were you and me

We took our chance out on the street

Then I missed my chance

And chances are it won't be coming back to me

Why can't I ignore it?

I keep giving in, but I should know better

'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me

And it strange that things change

But not me wanting you-

So desperately

So desperately

I keep giving in but I should know better

I keep giving in but I should know better

So desperately

I want you so desperately