I burnt myself.
I couldn't control it.
It was the irresistible feeling of not knowing what will happen next.
the burning sensation, the adrenaline rush that makes you run for it.


I never thought I'd.
oh well

the bus not taken

done with Research Methodology paper (well, just for midterms)

wasn't very good, seriously

I think I'm slowly getting used to ... not doing well wtf

but I mean seriously, MCQs aren't as easy as it sound

there are four or five close choices, super close, some even sound the same

today was unbearable, seriously.

walked from the main block to wisma, literally, walked, with LEGS wtf

just the right time to walk, right?

7.50 am : reaches main block bus stop, small HELP shuttle bus drove off but there are still a lot of students waiting.

8.00 am : HELP shuttle bus, the big yellow school bus, came, everyone rushed to it, couldn't be bothered to force myself with 80++ over students there

8.05 am : mini HELP shuttle bus arrived, it's so small it can only fit 25 max! couldn't get up the bus either.

8.08 am : Sof & Cassandra suggested we might as well just walk to class, since the waiting was unbearable and there were more students coming... blah

8.15 am : walked out of the main block from the FRONT GATE.

8.20 am : walked passed ESSO & Jes' place

8.25 am : walked passed Batai Hostel

8.30 am : saw Manulife building & HP Tower, almost liked you found a puddle of water in the desert, yes, it is that bad

8.35 am : climbed up the stairs to reach KPD block & walked to Wisma HELP, saw the big fat ugly yellow HELP shuttle bus passed by

8.40 am : reached the exam room, was 10 minutes late, was so soaked in sweat, my whole hair (which I just washed earlier in the morning) was wet like as if I just washed it, wtf

super FML moment

& did I mention when we walked, we kept walking uphill & there's no downhill?

it's not that steep but it is freaking tiring, for me laaaa

I have not even ate breakfast yet that time :(

now I appreciate the shuttle buses in HELP & the bus drivers so much.

I promise I'll be good next time & say more thank yous IF you(s) fetch me :P

Anyway, gotta crash now, so tired, my back is aching.

I have MC100 to study & PSY113 essay pending, due tomorrow!

DUE TOMORROW, who stupidly have assignment due the day before exam :(

then again, it's different subject so yeah, blah :(

have a gooood day everyone! *wavessss*

is it You?

To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance.

To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you.

To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair.

To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple.

To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand.

To never look away. And never, never, to forget

I've been playing with fire too much.

I think I accidentally burnt myself in the course.

One moment, I'm perfectly fine, & another, I'm all distracted.

This time reminds me of... every other time

I know it's probably the wrong time to tell you this, but I just want you to know that if you ever need me, I'll always be here for you. All you have to do is ask.

Nothing means more to me than what we share, no one in this world can ever compare.

Desperately

Something 'bout the way you looked at me

Made me think for a moment,

That maybe we were meant to be

Living our lives seperately

And it's strange that things change

But not me wanting you so desperately

Oh why can't I ignore it?

I keep giving it in but I should know better

'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me

And it's strange that things change

But not me wanting you so desperately

You looked my way and said "you frustrate me"

Like you're thinking of lines and times

When you and I were you and me

We took our chance out on the street

Then I missed my chance

And chances are it won't be coming back to me

Why can't I ignore it?

I keep giving in, but I should know better

'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me

And it strange that things change

But not me wanting you-

So desperately

So desperately

I keep giving in but I should know better

I keep giving in but I should know better

So desperately

I want you so desperately

counting the days to ...

menghitung hari

detik demi detik

masaku nanti apa kan ada

jalan cerita

kisah yang panjang

menghitung hari

padamkan saja

kobar asmaramu

jika putik itu takkan ada

yang aku minta

tulus hatimu

bukan puitis

pergi saja cintamu pergi

bilang saja pada semua

biar semua tahu adanya

diriku kini sendiri

sitting in front of the laptop (again, everyday) listening to emo songs, typing this post, instead of studying my initial 9 chapters of PSY105 and 8 chapters of MC100 and finishing my PSY113 essay. I guess procrastinating is everyone's favourite hobby, lately. Especially when your exam is just right around the corner, like well 4 days?

seriously, I do not know what I'm doing here

I should be finishing the essay then start speed reading (studying, as they call it) the Research Methodology & Business Communication textbook :(

I'm not a thunder-lightning person (WHO IS! YOU TELL ME)

when I say I'm not, it meant I'll run & hide whenever I hear thunder, see lightning.

SERIOUSLY :(

I am freaking scared of them -.-

especially when I'm staying on the 18th floor now

The chances of it striking anything/anywhere near me are higher

I'm not joking.

I might just run & hide under the blanket now.

but no, I'm too lazy for that, cause I might just fall asleep underneath it.

I'm really sleepy now but I cannot go back to sleeping, it is 6.42pm and I just woke up from my second sleep of the day not long ago, like 3pm? wtf :|

sudden craving for bah kut teh and dim sum :(

whoever that bring me that anytime today, I'll love you all long time!

hehe I mean it *hint hint*

I should really go back to my assignment, long long way to go.

biopsych should be banned

I moved from the 2nd floor to 18th floor.

Don't ask me why, I'm too lazy to explain.

Just went through one of the worst paper ever, Biopsychology.

Seriously, it is the worst paper, worst than last year's maths :(

25% for my whole sem, omgwtfbbqccbknn :(

50 questions, mean one question is like half mark.

I am only sure of what, 10 out of 50?

that's probably just 5% wtf out of 25% WTF!!

Motivation paper was do-able, there are some which I don't really know

but at least I was sure half of the paper was fine.

Biopsych is seriously... omgosh :( I really do not dare to get the results

I thought MCQs would be easy, boy, was I wrong, it was tougher.

There are 5 choices -.- all also I never hear before one, or all also damn close one.

damn fail larr rawr. Pek chek!! :(

The weather here is so hot, I am so pissed, everyday after class while I walk back to the room, it'll be like as if I'm sweating after a 10km run, seriously, it is THAT bad :( to make matter worst, my room only has aircond, no fan at all, I'm killing mothernature every day, I'm sorry, I know I am very contradicting lah, but no choice :(

sorry Earth! I still love you!

I am recycling everyday & I walk, everyday here, no petrol wasting.

see! I'm repaying back :x

but, I think my aircond is the HCFC (Hydrochlorofluorocarbon) one lor

the energy-efficient, cost effective & environment friendly thing :x

hee

anyway, midterms aren't over

i have two more papers, one next tues, another next thurs.

at least these two papers aren't that bad :(

stupid biopsych, I still have to study you in year 2 wtf

fml :(

i shall sleep now wtf its 6.27pm

so much for afternoon nap -.- turning out to be night nap :x

I'm sorry I screwed up

there's really nothing much left to say

have you ever?

Have you ever woke up one day feeling all uneasy?

Like the night before, you were having the time of your life

& the next morning, you're awake all down (worried, sad, sick, etc...)

I'm pretty sure everyone went through that :|

it can't be just me, it's kinda bipolar, I think.

I still miss my home every now and then.

but I'll be here for the next few years

Guess I'll have to learn to adapt changes in life.

This week marks the second week of university.

I feel old, seriously, university makes me feel old :(

then again... :/

Sometimes when I sit alone in this room, I wonder if I made the right decision.

To leave the place I called home for the past 18 years.

To leave the island where most (95% of) my family & friends gather.

To leave the heavenly paradise of food.

To come to this place, so new, so unhomely.

To gain lifetime experiences of being independent.

To let the parents worry so much of their only daughter's safety and all.

Have I really made the right decision?

Is it worth it all?

......

.....

....

...

..

.

After all its just KL.

*convincingggggg*

like hello, its only 4 hours driving or 45 minutes plane, from Penang.

Why the hell am I making it sound like I'm leaving to UK or US wtf.

wtf am i thinking?

I already decided to come, why am i doubting my decision this time?

KL isn't so bad I guess.

but there's no place like home ♥ ♥ ♥

PS: I MISS GENTING's CHEECHEONGFUN ^^V

the peanut butter smell and taste, the softness in your mouth.

the paste of which you can barely smell the strong prawn paste.

GENTING CHEE CHEONG FUN FTW!! :((

to you from me ♥

Dear You,

I just have to tell you, I'm not so sure what I'd do without you. I know it's cold outside, but this late night is just no fun without you, and I just wanted to say thanks; you're the only reason I've smiled in days.

♥ Me

beginning

I'm trying to slowly get used to life here right now.

Very different from Penang but I'll get a hang of it soon enough I guess.

I miss everyone back in Penang tho :(

KL isn't all that glamorous, seriously.

being the first few to leave Penang definitely suck

macam the first experiment kat KL :P
lol (:

anyway, I'm just updating cause I realised I haven't been blogging for a while

I missed blogging :(

will probably blog more now that I'm away from all distractions

gotta run.