Wonderwall

All the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how, because, maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me?
And after all, You're my wonderwall.

Engaged Idealist

Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons.

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.

Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood. Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship.

Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, theoretical, emotional, planning, idealistic, committed, likable, enthusiastic, responsible, helpful, loyal, diplomatic, friendly, inspiring, caring, solicitous, optimistic, effusive, adaptable, communicative, articulate, convincing, energetic, optimistic, open, vulnerable

psychology

Classical conditioning
Melanie Hernandez C. - Wait For You (Neutral stimulus)
She listens to this song every time she chats with him online (Unconditioned Stimulus)
He made her happy, she smiled like nothing else matter (Unconditioned Response)
Every time the song plays (Conditioned Stimulus)
She smiles (Conditioned Response)

Stimulus Generalisation ;
In classical conditioning, the tendency for the conditioned stimulus
to evoke similar responses after the response has been conditioned.
For example, she has been conditioned to fear seeing his car,
she will exhibit fear of any cars similar to the conditioned stimulus.

Self-handicapping ;
An action or choice which prevents a person from being responsible for failure.
For example, a student decides to go out partying
and drinking the night before an important exams.

This is Psychology overdose.
it's easier when you're applying it to real life examples.
If only, everything is as easy.
I've been thinking way too much.
Concluding my own conclusions.
Changing my perceptions.
Don’t act distant to hide affection.
Don’t pretend like you don’t care when you really do.
If you’re not strong enough, don’t do the two sentences typed above.

It’s too late, now.

i am that girl.

I am the kind of girl that will do the silliest things when you're around because I can't focus, I can't breathe properly when you're around. I am the kind of girl that will laugh for no reason at all because when you laugh, you make me want to laugh with you. I am the kind of girl that will bake you cookies even if I did not know how to bake just because I know you like eating them. I am the kind of girl who will learn all the chapters of mathematics just so I can tutor you. I am the kind of girl who will buy you supper because I like you fatter. I am the kind of girl who will learn foreign language because I know you want to visit that country one day. I am the kind of girl who will learn about other sports because you play and watch them. I am the kind of girl who will listen to the music you listen because they're awesome like you. I am the kind of girl who will talk only about you everyday to my friends just because I can't stop thinking of you. I am the kind of girl who will smile like the happiest girl alive because you're talking to me.

I am the kind of girl who will love you a lot more than you will ever know.
more than you will ever know.

300th

300th post

5 more days to mid term.
I'm scared, to bits.
I really am.
The post mid term plans are not making it go away.
Knowing you are not part of the plan makes it worst.
I miss you.
&&
I seriously shouldn't be thinking of you.


goodbye.

what is life without you ?

"I hate you...", she pulled away from him.
"It's not like what you think it is. I SWEAR!", he came running after her.
"This is over. WE ARE OVER!", she screamed and ran away.
He, was there, all alone, feeling dejected. He kept whispering soft apologies but she was no longer there. He was angry, angry at himself for taking this relationship for granted.
He drove off. Full speed. Drifted.
There was a lorry from the other side of the road, he did a quick turn, lost control of his car, tyres were screeching, the car violently swerved and hit the side of the road.


* * * * * * *


It was just a dream.
thank God.
:DDDDDDD

I just want you to know

I used to want everything to stay the same.
But feelings fade and people change.
So, I'm going to live every moment like its my last,
and not let the future be based on my past.

the Beginning

I took too many things for granted.
Now, it's ruling over me.


I took the joy and minus it with the misery
I see a positive
hence
Joy > Misery
Joy wins.

I am happy :)

i am learning to appreciate the happy times.
just smile
&& savour it all.

i don't love you

I don't love you
I don't love you
I don't love you
I DON'T LOVE YOU!
or maybe not...

Just one day, I'll be able to look you in the eyes
& say these four words.
I will.
I know I will.

sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once.
sometimes you will find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time.
at times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them.
life comes without guarantees.
except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.
when i met you, i never would have imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you.
i never would have thought i would have dreams about you, or miss being by your side.
i never thought i would get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. when i first met you, i never would have thought i would love you.
I know we're complete strangers now, we both pretend like we don't care, but I can feel the tension as much as you can.
I know how to hide my feelings from your piercing stare
& no matter what you think, I still miss you.
And I hope that someday we could talk and forget that time ever drew distance between us.
We could make a bridge out of words, as fragile as it might be, the awkward pauses and incomprehensible mumbling twisting and twining into some stronger foothold.
Someday, I might reach you and redeem myself.
But I wouldn't count on it anytime soon.

Sometimes I just want to play L4D with you everyday
So I can kill you, virtually
At least with that, I know I won't lose you for real