Just A Feeling

You know that feeling? When you're just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you're tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay. But no one's going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you're tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won't be. But you're still hoping. And you're still wishing. And you're still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You're fighting.

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at one point, you really just wished you can stop fighting and let it all go.

Let it wash away all the pain and doubtfulness of your life.

I'm sorry that I always have this fear that one day you are going to discover that I am not as great as you once thought I was & you will leave me, so I always do my best to impress you to end up making a fool out of myself.

I just hope that you miss me a little when I'm gone.

Just a little is enough.