when was the last time

you feel happy, for yourself?

I don't know

sometimes, there's just so much one can do
there are always restrictions pulling you back from what you really want


what can I say?


I tell myself everyday that my world don't revolve around you all the time
truth is, I lied.
my world is spinning, turning upside down and it's all for you.
then again, who am I to tell you all these?
last time I remembered, I screwed things up pretty badly.

I'm sorry.

maybe it is redemption month after all..