Saturday, February 26, 2011

fighter ?

Where did all the carefree laughs go? Now there's nothing but anger and bitterness in our friendship. And right now, I'm the glue that's holding us together. You have no trouble letting us go, letting our friendship go. But I believe if someone is important enough to impact and change your life, then they are worth fighting for. But I'm fighting alone. You're ready, I'm not. And sooner or later, I will have to stop and let go. Will you miss me? Will you ever realize what you've lost? Or am I truly just another person in your life that comes and goes? Am I truly not important enough to keep in your life?

Friday, February 18, 2011

what is on my mind?

I’m fucking tired. I’m tired of caring for people who don’t give a shit about me. I’m tired of waiting for a text that’s never going to come. I’m tired of thinking things will be different, yet they never change. I’m tired of giving out chances only to be let down. I’m tired of putting forth 100% of an effort and only getting 25% in return. I’m tired of broken promises. I’m tired of let downs by people who matter most to me. I’m tired of making someone a priority, when in reality I’m just a number to them. I’m tired of shitty friend who are never there for me. I’m tired of self centered assholes, who only manipulate a situation from their own perspective, never even thinking about what someone is going through. I’m so tired of the same old bullshit over and over again.