Tuesday, March 31, 2009

my love.

You are the only one I can rely on.
You are always there when I am sad.
You are around even when I am smiling, or laughing.
You never left me like what he did.
You've brought more giggles to my life.
You're so awesome I melt every time I see you.
You've been a great accompany, baby.

*starts giggling again*

Monday, March 30, 2009

I want you to understand that
I want to be more than just friends.
but we're not even friends now.

I wait for you to sign on,
I wait for your screenname to come up,
on the bottom right hand corner of my screen.
& then I want to IM you,
But sometimes i just can't.
I am restricted to.

Butterflies enter my stomach every time i see you.

Last night, I was dreaming about us being together.
But then I woke up and came back to reality.

Now I'm scared to talk to you,
Ever since that one day.
It's funny how one thing that happened one day,
can change your whole life.

i wake up in the middle of the night, thinking of you.

guess what time it is!
yes it's
i'm wishing not for you,
but for you to talk to me.
that's all i want,
just randomly IM/text me,
be the one to talk to me first

I get jealous when I see you with other girls.

You're the king of mixed signals,
and I’m the queen of second thoughts.

i wanted to tell you all my secrets , but you became one

i go the extra mile , i wake up those thirty minutes early just to have more time to look good for you. i walk past you twice in the hallway just for you to notice me , but all you notice are my bestfriends , i'm tired of being second best . i want to be the one you want , but i dont want to change for you , i want you to like me for me . but no , when i walk up to impress you , you impress HER . you wave goodbye to me , but you hug her goodbye . is second best all i'll ever be?

It kills me to know you're online but won't talk to me.
It just takes time, I guess, to realize I don't mean
anything to you anymore, & maybe I never really did.

I write all these quotes for you, and only you.
But the thing is, you don't even know.

secret #1: weekends without you have been pretty much screwed up.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Picspam from 2008 to February 2009

Christmas Party with them girls.
Our first official Dress Party *screams*

Rachel Ooi Zi Xin's 18th Birthday.
our official Second Dress party *yay!*

Happy Chinese New Yearr :))
family reunion :)

my first attempt to bake a cake.
for HaoLiang :O
a very very very diabetes cake as he said :P

the last few pieces that were given to *points* that guy in brown, BOB! :p

Girlfriends came and visited me in Disted.
skipped Accounts to go out with them.

Played cards in Coffee Island after skipping class.

PC's birthday party, was almost overdressed.
or, I think I was over dressed & May was over shoe-ed :P

bought PC his cake on his official birthday (;

had my first Gellatissimo (soft) ice-cream on
one of those random-after-college outing

I'm sorry, I got lazy to update my March pictures.
it will be updated soon.

I'm done with Bibliography.
400 words more to go for Economics.
boo hoo.

Friday, March 27, 2009


I purposely did not sign in my MSN to prevent distractions.
then I signed in my Facebook.
Spent an hour there, commenting and replying comments.
Economics & Bibliography is waiting for me :(
I must stop procrastinating.

Monday, March 23, 2009


I know we're complete strangers now,
we both pretend like we don't care,
but I can feel the tension as much as you can.
I know how to hide my feelings from your piercing stare
& no matter what you think,
I still miss you.

November baby =]

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Can't control emotions.


Saturday, March 21, 2009

love note

I miss you silly boy :(

No matter what I do,
All I think about is you,
Even when I'm with my boo friends,
boy you know I'm crazy over you.

Friday, March 20, 2009


I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know...

It hit the ground & shattered into million pieces.
it's gone, gone forever, now.

keep smiling.
everything will be okay

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

i wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you.

I want to go shopping for new clothes.
It's a new semester already.
girls will always be girls.

text me ok.
or leave a msg in my tagboard.


Tuesday, March 17, 2009

hello goodbyes <3

"hey.." he waved, awkwardly walking pass me.
I tried to ignore, but
it did not work.
"hello... ", we smiled.
This totally made my day <3

"You are always talking to them, and not me!"
He shrugged and walked off.
5 minutes late, the phone rang.
He sent a really cute apology message.

"Look! He's talking to another girl! OMG! Flirter!", I continuously complained.
He then walked pass without saying a word.
I wanted to break down and cry.
And the next day, he smiled and I melt
ed again.
Like always -___- wtf.

"Why are you so mean?", I stared at him.
"I am not..."
"You are always
blarghh* I hate you, argh!", stomped off.
"I'm sorry?", he apologised not knowing what he did wrong.
wtf so cute can.

"Where's your girlfriend?"
"I don't have one... Where's your boyfriend?"
"standing right in front of me He's there!", I pointed at the mirror and laughed.
He stood there and stared into the mirror for a few minutes just to realised there's no one there -__- but him.

"I'm not talking to you, today, tomorrow and on Friday anymore."
He did the -__- face, again.
It's always fun to see him pull that face.

He's so cute wtf.

I just realised I always throw tantrums at him.
but he's always flirting talking with girls others.
I'm so... (not) mean, right?

ahhh I'm confused :(
going to sleep right now.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

I told myself today was gonna be the day
No more excuses 'cause I knew exactly what to say
Was gonna make my play but just like yesterday
My mind erased and I let the moment slip away
Another night got me sitting here all on my own
Picking up the phone,
But I cant get past the dial tone
Racking my brain
Going insane
Again and again
I can't keep going this way.

Romeo, save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I'm not dead.
I am having my Moral Exam tomorrow.
then the day after that, SPM results.
Yes, tragic much, lol.
I'm sorry again for not updating much.
it have been a roller coaster ride since January till now.
Saya masih tak biasa.
anyway I love all my course mates :D
they're awesome people (like me lah, duh!)
lol. ok I'm leaving again.
Study time :)
Wish me luck for the Results anyway.