Thursday, December 30, 2010


To everyone who reads this,

I want to tell you that you are beautiful. You really are. Don’t let anyone tell you or make you feel otherwise. You are worth everything. I know that sometimes you may feel alone and as if your whole world is falling apart, but just believe. Have faith that everything is going to be okay. Remember that there is a solution to everything. I have faith in you. I really do. You can be anyone you want to be and accomplish your biggest goals if you try hard enough. Lastly, please don’t forget to smile more often. Happy people are the prettiest people.

P.S - always remember that you are loved.

Monday, December 27, 2010

what do you know? Nothing.

I constantly wonder how my life looks in other people’s eyes.

Do they think I have it easy?
Do they think I have nothing going on for myself?
Or are they fascinated with who I am?

The thing is that no one will ever know my whole story.
No one will ever know the things I’ve had to overcome.
Not even my closest friends, not even my own family.
The thing is that people are so quick to judge nowadays.
You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see.
I always try to look as put together as I can, and I guess that’s my way of hiding from the truth.

It’s just that, the way everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay.
That I never go through anything.

If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how I’m holding on for dear life on this one last strand that’s recently become very delicate.

The truth is that no one really knows me.

No one will ever know me, and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why I am the way I am.

Friday, December 24, 2010

One of those nights; imy ♥

It is late nights like this that are the worst. You stay up all night, and can’t get yourself to fall asleep, so all you can do is think, think about everything. Everything that you have been through in your life and as always, it’s mostly the bad things that stand out the most. You reminisce the good times you've had with people that no longer exist in your life. You think about how much happier you used to be and how everything was better before. It is nights like this when you realize just how lonely you are, and how you wish that things would be alright for once.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

broken till nothing's left; vanished.

Half the people you know are broken. Not all in the same way, but in their own unique way. They wake up and feel some sort of pain too. But some people don’t feel the pain, some block it out, cover it up until they no longer can distinguish it’s there.

I hate that feeling. The feeling when you’re sad but you have no idea why. You just are. And in your mind, you’re thinking of all the bad things in your life and apply it to your emotions, making you even more sad. Then people ask you what’s wrong and you have nothing to say. You end up sitting there, quiet, while it seems as if everyone, but you, is happy.

Saturday, December 11, 2010


Have you ever met THE person? That one person that you’d do anything for just to make them smile. Time is never wasted as long as when you’re with that person. That one who’s company you enjoy more than others. Just the thought of that one person brings a smile to your face. Even just the sight of them makes your day that much better. They do so much more, that just makes your heart beat a little bit faster, and makes your stomach have that many more butterflies. Overall, you can say you are in love with them. You love that person with all your heart.

But what’s the problem? You don’t want to risk your friendship. As much as you’d love to take your relationship with him/her to the next level, you’re scared to. Why? Because what if that person doesn’t feel the same way as you? That would ruin the friendship, and you’d lose that one person you loved the most. Your heart is practically gone if that were to happen. You love the person too much to let your own feelings get in the way of the friendship. You’d rather suffer the pain of not taking the risk rather than losing him/her for good.

Time passes by and you see that person love someone else. Hurts, a lot. You lost your chance with that one person you get to be with. Sure, your still friends with them, but was all that pain worth what you’re going through now? Seeing someone you love, love someone else? Was all that time, making sure that you’ll be friends no matter what, worth not taking that risk and making each other as happy as can be? Was not taking that risk worth it? You thought that only being “stuck” as his/her friend, would the only way you could have him/her forever.

But all that doesn’t matter now, does it? You love him/her so much, that you’d do anything just to see him/her happy. You’re going to let your feelings suffer (once again) just to know that he/she will be happy. It doesn’t matter anymore that they’re with someone else, you just care for his/her well-being. It hurts so much knowing that you’ve “lost” him/her just because you were too scared to take that chance. Because those stupid “What if”s held you back. Now you’re stuck with the “What if”s of doing it differently like telling that person your feelings. What if you did? What if you were the reason for the smile on his/her face? What if you were the reason that he/she woke up to you every morning? The last thought on his/her mind before going to bed? What if you’re the reason for their happiness? Now these questions haunt you if you did take that risk. But it doesn’t matter anymore.