Thursday, January 31, 2008

birthday shoutout




Awww, go get your driving license soon & we can earn our profits by you know what
ahems xD

Sunday, January 27, 2008

only reminds me of you...

I tried to run from your side, but each place I hide,
it only reminds me of you.
When I turn out all the lights, even the night,
it only reminds me of you.

Only you...

Only Reminds Me Of You - MYMP

it's 11.11
where's the dreams come true ?
what happened to the work harder, you'll get it ?

whatever happened to forever ; eternal & everlasting ?

gone, with you.

It Goes On

two deaths and it's just the beginning of the year.

First, it was Heath Ledger.

then Lee Nian Ning

That girl that passed away on the way back to Penang in a bus crash. I was in her funeral a while ago, it was so tragic, seeing her parents having to send her off at such a young age. A number of people were there, mostly from MGS, seeing everybody in such mixed emotion, it's just so sad to lose somebody dearly, no?

Such tragic things can just happen anytime, at any minute of our life.
In just a split second, we might be gone, or lost somebody dearly to us.

Life is just so unfair
yes, it is.

& short.
very, indeed.

talk about karma, why are those committing sins not being punished while those who is innocent have to sacrifice for those big fat sinners. Why is everything so complicated when you're growing up ? Why must life be so sad, why can't it be happy ?

not that I don't understand why -___-
just let me rant about it.


Saturday, January 26, 2008

I hope Life dies.

it is the 10384395425th time.

it's the 12th day.
I will probably be celebrating
Miserable Chinese New Year.
Congrats me.

you look pass me like I don't exist.
I probably don't exist in your eyes.
I probably shouldn't even exist in yourthis world.

worthless, hopeless & useless
why did those innocent people die in the bus crash?
Why not me?
Of all time, why now?
Life is unfair.
I hope mine die, now.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

quotes :]

before, my fear was being vulnerable. the ability of another human being to possibly tear apart your insides at any given moment was enough to keep me running. he, however, made my insides come alive. my smile become permanent, and laughter more frequent. he took away my fear and gave me hope. but more importantly, for the first time in my life, instead of wanting to run, he gave me every reason to stay.

And I remember that you were that one person
who could turn every frown into a smile in a
few simple words, that person who lifted my
head when I was losing faith in myself, that one
person who carried tears on her shoulders after
every fights, every breakup and every death.
That one person who always knew what I was
feeling by the look on my face, that one person
who accepted who I was when everyone else just
laughed in my face, that one person that
accepted every decision I made believing that
I'd make the right decisions, the one person who
knew who I really was, that one person that made
the biggest difference in my life; my best friend.

Isn't it strange the places on the map your heart can take you? And then you figure out sometimes it's okay to stay still for a while, you don't have to go everywhere all at once, you can see a boy & you can love him for a minute & maybe it's real & maybe it's not, but sometimes all you have to do is wave back & keep going

You can't waste time over missing something in the past. Life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you accept that. Yet you can't stop thinking of how good it used to be. Afraid you'll never experience something like it again - afraid you've already lived it and already lost it.

to let go isn't to forget, not to think about it, or ignore. it doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. letting go isn't about winning or losing. it's not about pride,and its not about how you appear, and it's not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. it's not about giving in or giving up. letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. to let go is to cherish memories, to overcome and move on. it is having an open mind in confidence for the future. letting go is learning, experiencing, and growing. to let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. it's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. letting go is growing up. it is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. to let go is to open a door, to clear a path and let yourself free.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, Prince Charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

dedication eyy :]

this post goes to ...

uh huh :)
my two besties :]
(Please don't kill me. I'm just happy, very happy :D)


Saturday, January 19, 2008

memories oh memories

p/s : sorry, no pic of me venne, yueshern & charisma.
I realised I didn't take any picture with them at all this year.
hah ! :(

* * * * *

Since I haven't been posting up pictures lately, I'll post all the pictures of me & my close friends all in one shot to reminisce the year 2007


today wasn't that bad after all :]
the mother didn't complain much to the father after coming back from school
I suppose it's a good thing, hmmm ? =)

I miss him a lot.

there is nothing in this world
can compare to you,
you're the air I breathe,
the heart that keeps me alive,
the light that keeps me away from darkness,
I love you.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

I finally bought that red SUB top :]

I am very happy now

... till this Saturday

I think

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go


Tuesday, January 8, 2008

blah :(

I want to go shopping

I need a freaking red dress
and a new bag :)
with matching wedges/pump/heels

i want to make memories
of you & me,

Saturday, January 5, 2008

little note

I want to see you now.
I have a sudden urge

... of hugging you, right now

where art thou ?

Thursday, January 3, 2008

New Year Resolutions

2007 has come & gone, 2008 has just started.

new year, new resolutions, new start

My year started off great, just at the moment the time ticks 12am, the fireworks sparked up and lighten up the whole sky, it was beautiful. And the next minute, I received his message, yup, he's that first person :) to wish me *something* heehee.

I am indeed very happy that night :D

okay, we shall start with the new year resolutions now.

here is just some of the resolutions I'm actually determined to accomplish :)

this is like the classic resolution, every year, at least 95% of girls around the world would made a point to lose weight. Prom is just 8 months away from now, I will use these 8 months to shed off all the fats and tone up my body. Dieting is good but exercising is better :) so I guess I'll start exercising more now.

I know I say that every year, but this is my last year in high school and I really need to buck up as SPM is just 11 months away. I wouldn't want to screw up SPM and ruin my future like that, it's not worth it, after 11 years of education. I shall start doing my Form Four revision now before it's too late.

I don't want to start losing friends even before my high school years end. I want to stay in contact with everybody and to not let them think I just treat them just like acquaintances. I want to stay close with everybody the way everything is and not leave anybody in the state of loneliness at any point. I love all you people :)

I must learn to let go if it doesn't work out. Move on with life 'cause life goes on no matter what :) and to think of others feelings before I do/say things.




That is all for now, I seriously wish I could get these things done.
Actually, there are more that I would like to add, but I intend to have a shorter list.
It's easier to accomplish that way

I think I shouldn't get too attached
I am dreaming of you a lot
It's not good, I guess?

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Happy 2008 :D

Can you believe it?
I'm form five tomorrow.
t o m o r r o w
I am going to be A SENIOR, a freaking senior weihh.

I've never thought in my life, I'll ever be form five (don't ask why)
it's some inside joke

between, I had a greeeeaaaat New Year celebration :]
New Year Eve in One U with friends && I think I saw Estranged there, I think only lahh, I don't really remember clearly. Then the countdown and I got sprayed by -__- and something happened *smiles widely* then we were off to MardiGras, it was sooo packed inside & HOT but yeah, it was fun. And here comes the worst part of the night, 3 inches high heels at 3am -_-
That was just freaking awesomeful, no ? ;)

Came back to Penang on the next day after brunch at Ian's && bought Dunkins for the BBQ on the way back, reached home and sleep till around 7 something, the father fetched me to Andrew's house for bbq.

woooo hooooo :D

Finally meet them after sooooooo looooong, at least before school reopens hmmm :)
There were like 20 people food and there were only 9 people there -___- eat till can die I tell you, in the end we started gambling, who lose have to eat the sausages.

everybody had to eat sausages after that *smirks*

came back at 11-ish && went to McD for McFlurry.
came back & slept straight -__-

that's how I spend my New Year :)
simple & sweet, no?