Thursday, July 31, 2008


where do you get the best mojito in Penang ?
a sudden urge.
it's been soooooo long since I last had one.

long island, cosmo, daiquiri, martini, pina colada, margarita,
sex on the beach, sunrise, bijou, orgasm etc etc...

ahh cocktails urge.

anyone ?

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

In The Ayer

currently listening :

Flo Rida feat. Will.I.Am - In The Ayer

oh hot damn
this is my jam
keep me partyin to the A.M
y'all don’t understand , make me throw my hands
in the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer

it is stuck in the brain.

so much for photoshop'ing the whole day.
I still don't see anything productive.
my mind is so blank.
everything is due 15th August.
how lahh ?
I need more creative cells.
anyone ?

on random note,
I feel like buying shoes now :D
dah dah~

out, now.


" goodnight pretty "


that pretty much definitely made my day


Tuesday, July 29, 2008

♥ baby ♥

ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give him another chance, and no matter how many times you say this is his last one, you know it is a lie because there is always just one more waiting for him, the one person you know you are better off without but yet you can't find a way to let him go because deep down inside you wouldn't know what to do without him, the one person you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to over look it because you love him.

So lets say that theoretically, I really like him, and theoretically, even though it sounds moronically cliche and overused, he gives me butterflies. And just for kicks, lets add that, all in theory of course, he may be one of the most wonderful people I have ever met, and hypothetically, my heart beats ten times faster when I see him.

i think
my flew away with him.

Monday, July 28, 2008


I am at the lowest point of the month, year, life, now.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Would you run if I told you I love you ? ...

I never saw it coming, the way a voice can make me feel
And I fear that I am falling
I should be old enough to know
Not to fall in love with the voice on the radio you

So here I stand fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
And here I stand, wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same, the same as I do

Saturday, July 26, 2008

i miss you....


I need to keep myself busy.

as busy as possible.
you guys can come look for me anytime.
even out for a movie or a drink will do.

I need a time out.

cutting down alcohol FOR REAL :D
the mother bet on 100 I can't quit.
for that 100, I will might.

There is class later.
who fancy Saturday class? =.=

oh fuck.
its 0334.
off now.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008


I was born to say fuck.

the mother complained I curse too much.
the father wants me to go NS so badly.
the first brother likes to cari pasal with me.
the second brother said I am too coward to go PC Fair alone.

nevermind that. I still love them all :D
I'm so sweet, no? ;]

I don't like post office.
I know it's random.
but seriously, I dislike post offices.
no, it's not the letters or the postmen this time.
I just, at one point, hate sitting there and stare into the space for God-knows-how-long
I had to go to three different post offices just to settle the car's stuff.
It was so frustrating.

anyway, I had Slurpee today, after so loooong.
ahh, heavenly.

had a chat with an old friend.
how we all wish we were kids again,
when skinned knees are a lot easier to fix than broken heart.


Monday, July 21, 2008

of THE cookies :D

few weeks ago,

I decided to bake cookies for the somebody friends.


it might not look nice.
but it's the thought that counts, right?

baked, gave, hopefully ate.

nobody died eating it.
blehh :P

I woke up at 4am this morning.

yes, wtf I know.

and guess what ?

yes, I revised.


Penang would probably snow.... soon.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

I have no life

I feel so tired, my legs are sore.
The migraine is killing me :(
grrr, feeling nauseous again.

It's been going on like this since lastnight.
freaking hangover.

lost my house keys again lastnight.
wtf :[


I want to watch The Dark Knight.
anyone ?

I'm going to rest again.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

randomness strike. wtf

just had a long talk with the b.
he is coming back soon :)

honeykins is sleeping


I am here.

good night everyone.
no I mean good morning :)

failed updates. apologies.

You know, I have so many things I want to update.
but I can't seem to remember anything about those events
except I only have all the pictures lol.

Let me list down all the events I planned-to-blog-but-failed & those in-the-process-but-probably-failing.
- Chung Ling Campfire [June 3rd]
I totally forgotten everything about it but I'll post pictures of it.
- Janice's Birthday Party. [June 4th]
That pretty girl's birthday, I pun forgotten what happened, bad memory -___- but I still have all the pictures :D will post, soon.... kuaa ?
- Woan Shing's Birthday blogged
- My trip back to Perlis.
I only remember crashing the museum and palace in the middle of the night and the rest? history. wtf. LOL. Might post up some pictures too.
- the father's birthday bash
okay, I don't think there's anything to blog about this :D but there might be pictures. Hopefully I can find the pictures still.
- the brother's farewell
Nothing much, just mostly pictures... I think.
- Rangers One Day Training Camp.[12th July]
It will be another photo spam post :] vain rangers, a DSLR, what do you think happened ? :P
- Vennezia' s Birthday @ Queens. [13th July]
I can pretty much remember everything still since it was just a week ago. Will write about it, soon, hopefully it will be successful.

Yes, that's pretty much all I think.
I'm not too sure :S
But that's probably all I can remember lahh.

One day I might get so bored, I'll update with a freaking huge photospam post.
Hopefully that day will come soon? lol.
Most probably when I'm all done with EB :D


gonna write you a love song... no wait, not you.

You will be die.

quoted by the favourite teacher.

sorry, I know I shouldn't laugh. I know.

I am addicted to mint, no, ECLIPSE to be exact.


me ; big brother.

*sighs* how to earn fast cash ?
how much ?
four hundred thousand, nevermind, forty thousand first will do.
Go invite more people, one day can earn forty thousand *smiles widely*
Invite what people?
You click invite then click your friends name and then invite them to play Friends For Sale then can earn money fast.
WTF, stupid girl -.- I'm talking about REALITY
*slaps forehead* *keeps quite*
Facebook Junkie -.- you are hopeless, got no future d lahh *shakes head*

wtf, i'm such a facebook junkie these days lol.
I should stop FB-ing for sometime.
Need to start revising.
Trials in seven weeks.

1,176 HOURS.
70,560 MINUTES
4,233,600 SECONDS


Tomorrow is fully EB day.
no more postponing to other days.


please help me stay focus :(

Friday, July 18, 2008


To my sayang yang cantik dan panas dan pandai.


stay gorgeous & sexy, honey.
we MUST go out, one day.

off to tidurland.
doubletuitions later :(

Thursday, July 17, 2008


Sometimes we lie because it's easier than telling the truth.
Sometimes we lie because we need to forget.
Sometimes we lie because you don't want to tell her she looks fat in those jeans.
Sometimes we lie because fantasy is better than reality.
Sometimes we lie because it's too painful to tell the truth.
Sometimes we lie because we think it's the truth.
Sometimes we lie because it is faster to do so.
Sometimes we lie because you need to get out of something.
Sometimes we lie because life can't wait.
Sometimes we lie because pain is not an option.
Sometimes we lie because there is nothing better to do.
Sometimes we lie because we need to turn attention away from ourselves.
Sometimes we lie because we don't know what else to do.
Sometimes we lie because we don't want to tell children there isn't a Santa Clause.
Sometimes we lie because it gives us a laugh.
Sometimes we lie because sarcasm gives emphasis.
Sometimes we lie because we need to prove a point.
Sometimes we lie because everyone needs a break once in a while.
Sometimes we lie because an alibi is needed.
Sometimes we lie because a surprise is being planned.
Sometimes we lie because we could lose money.
Sometimes we lie because we want to keep a friend.
Sometimes we lie because we are instructed to.
Sometimes we lie because money is offered.
Sometimes we lie because revenge is sweet.
Sometimes we lie because we would like to hurt someone emotionally.
Sometimes we lie because agreeing is easier than debating.
Sometimes we lie because we are scared.
and rarely ... we tell the truth.

all she wants is a hint of hope

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

dedication #2.

I'm a happy person, I swear I am. I sing in the shower and dance down hallways. I laugh and giggle. I do all the things happy people to. I just love life, but that doesn't mean I don't miss him. It doesn't mean that I don't wish things had ended differently and it doesn't mean that I don't get upset over the fact that he doesn't miss me at all. No, it doesn't mean that at all.

I know a lot of people know who he is, but I also know there are not that many who got to see the side of the guy that I did. And that guy, well, I'll never forget him, never. I've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him and I wouldn't change a thing about it. Your heart needs to go through some bumps like these in order to make it through. Besides, no matter what he's done or not done, he had the biggest impact on me this past year. And I know no matter how many years go by, my stomach will always do a little flip whenever I see that face.

It's amazing how all this can be happening. I mean, my whole life is falling apart and yet, every time I talk to him, I stop feeling bad for myself, and I begin to smile. He always has that effect over me.

It's you. You're the one I talk about all the time, and the one I can't stop thinking about. The one that can make me laugh when I don't even want to smile. The one that can make me feel better in 2.2 seconds. It's you that I'm crazy about.

Imagine how many stories
are hidden under just one smile


results day. woots

Parents Teachers Day today.

mine was very reluctant to go.
father, busy like always.
mother, lazy like always.
daughter, happy like always.

no, actually the daughter is not happy.
the results were odious, very very abhorrent.

"the first puff will lead to more.
& soon it will be fatal.
Quit before it's too late..."

Monday, July 14, 2008

better in time

Night after night, I pretended to not be waiting and turn off the phone when you call. I wake up in the middle of the night just to realize you're not there anymore. I remember every word you said, every sentence you speak, everything we did.

I thought I left it all behind.
I thought it was gone for good.
I thought you vanished, for as long as I could remember.


Have you ever woke up one day thinking you have everything in the world and suddenly you're robbed off the happiness?

Have you ever pretended you're happy for months then to realize you weren't actually happy at all ?

I wanted to tell you,
as much as I wanted to,
I couldn't.

some words are better left unknown.

no, I'm fine.
just reminiscing.

tagged by Joan

Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits /things / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
No TAG backs!

1. I am, not just fat, I am very fat & short =(

2. I have a thing for lingerie.

3. I talk a lot and extra fast when I'm pissed&scared.

4. I don't mind being called fat, it's my pride... now :S

5. I have freaking long antenna :D

6. I can speak quite a number of dialects :]

7. I have an awesome family and I love them to bits.

8. I am not really that mean, maybe just meaner at times.

9. I love writing short posts in my blog lately.

10. I find red very attractive, like so freaking hot & sexy o.O

11. I have a sudden urge to bake and cook nowadays.

12. I stopped believing in .... happily ever after & forever :]

13. I want to learn fishing!

14. Guys who can play the piano & violin are sexy like hell.

15. I have a thing with kinky, bitchy, sexy, trashy & fatty.

I tag
1. Tiffany Tan
2. Rachel Ooi
3. Sok Wah
4. Woan Shing
5. Christ Tan
6. Yi Lin
7. Nicole Tan
8. Charis
9. Imin
10. Karla

Sunday, July 13, 2008


Camp wasn't that bad, I think.
It was alright since I was only the photographer :S


so much for being a photographer,
end up digging hole for mud crawl during games,
and now I have two aching hands :(

will update on that once I get all the pictures into my computer :D

Queens again just now for Venne's birthday.
Hope you like the video cam
now you can finally make your life documentary :D


I should stop going out, like seriously.

anyone up for shopping spree in Gurney next week ? :D

Friday, July 11, 2008

I AM FAT.... part II

I keep growing sideways nowadays.
Not nowadays, I meant... these few years.
the temptations of food and the laziness to exercise.
I mean seriously, compare me and all my kawanbaiks.
wtf, all of them have a body to-die-for.
their coke-bottle body shape, their long legs, their small waists,
the keep eating and never go fat disorder.

wtf, i want.
Friends like them are .... *shakes head*


(kawanbaiks sekalian, if you all read this and start thinking "wtf is she talking about, I am fat okays" then you want to type in my tagboard something like "WEIHH I AM FAT TOO" or "Excuse me, I am fatter please". Please think twice before you do so, don't make me go to you and show you the spare tyresSsSssSsssS and ... the flabby arms and legs, wtf. OK just be careful before you say something regretful now, only that seifeiloh can come to me and say that. MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA, ok I'm being mean :P)

oh well, i am sorta happy with my body too lah.
I know I'm not skinny like Kate Moss, curvy like Jessica Simpson, sexy like Jessica Alba, short&curvy&beautiful like Eva Longoria.
but at least I have one asset nobody have :D
my tummy, awwww.
SAY IT (or I'll bitchslap/kick/hentam/box you... *smirks*)
I am not ashamed of it but I'm not saying I'm proud of it too :D
but it's alright.

I will work harder to burn some fats lah. As if -.-
I say that everyday, wtf.

- sometimes what is on the outside might be pretty,
but what is in the inside are those matter the most -


a reply to someone from the tagboard.

If I see you around, I promise I will say it right at your face :)
Don't have to explain the coincidently.
It doesn't matter much :)
I blog anything I want.
I do hope it does not bother you at all.
If it does, then.. my bad :D

I am shallow minded.
I am so fat I could kill an elephant.

no wait, sorry, I am the elephant ;)
I am so stupid I don't know where my brain is.
I am so poor I can't even afford my own camera.
wtf, seriously :( I am a sad kid.


Tuesday, July 8, 2008

dedication #1

hey you, yes you.

I have so much to tell you, yet everytime we talk, I'd stutter. Though the days we know each other may be short but we seem to know each other so well or maybe it's just what I think. Sometimes I may freak out or get angry over small little things, I'm sorry, but hey, I care for you *rolls eyes* and I
sayang you ;)

Do you know whenever you don't reply my messages I'll get all cranked up? Do you know everytime you IM me in MSN, I'd stop everything I do just for you? Do you know you'd always appear in this little mind of mine, like 1420 minutes out of 24 hours? Do you know when things get tough and a simple greeting from you is all I need to turn my frown upside down? Do you know you weren't my Prince Charming in my dream but I still chose you over him ? XD omg this is going no where.

The whole point of this is, I care for you, I sayang you, I like you, and I
might will do everything for you. Things will not be easy but I'll always be here and you'll always be there ..... right? *glares* wtf, you better be >;)

Loads Of Love (LOL)
me, yes me (:

you & me.
I'll marinate, you'll barbecue.
Together, we'll eat.


no it's not a relationship.

Listening to : Breakdown by Daughtry

I just ate my first dumpling like 2 minutes ago.
wtf. i know.
But it's my first this year, excluding the SokWah's one.
cause it was just two mouth :(

I have a sudden urge of playing the piano now.

Monday, July 7, 2008


Sexbomb Sexbomb you're a Sexbomb

You can give it to me, when I need to come along
Sexbomb sexbomb you're my sexbomb
And baby you can turn me on.

Sexbomb by Tom Jones


I am nice, no ?

asylum girl,
I don't want to play games anymore.
If you have a problem, bitch right at my face :)
I don't like participating in kids activity ;)
No, wait, just yours to be exact.
I'm waiting for something to spice up my life.
It's getting a tad too boring right now.


I love my Rachel & Sara.
If you bitch them, I will whore & hoe you back.
wtf :X

I am damn hiao.
Miang ka beh si.


super random

going for a midnight walk.

need to get some air for creativity.


he's hot with or without clothes on.
super random, I know.
he's such a sex bomb.
no, they're such sex bombs, wtf.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

over the weekends

I had the best weekend ever.
Got pretty wasted lastnight.
freaking Jack Daniels & Chivas.
and what's best is today.
drove & got into some accident.
Isn't it just the most amazing weekends ?

I'm still smiling.
I promised.

on the other side.
he called.
(different he from the last post)

I'm as happy as the little girl who got her first ice cream.
You're my ice cream :)
cold & sweet.
I like ;)

Saturday, July 5, 2008

he left.

he left.

nobody's going to go PC Fair and check prices for me,
nobody's going to fetch me around whenever I want to go out,
nobody's going to buy me burger from Abang in the middle of the night,
nobody's going to warn me about getting virus in the comp,
nobody's going to fix the computer for me,
nobody's going to joke with me when the mother is having her PMS,
nobody's going to force me to eat the fruits at home,
nobody's going to come back in the middle of the night & walk like gajah, WTFLOL,
nobody's going to buy the inkjet for the printer anymore,
nobody's going to scream "yeerrrr chao bi.. " whenever I spray perfume.


ok, I'm just being dramatic :D
he's coming back like in four months time :)
November :))
after my birthday but it's okay.


Thursday, July 3, 2008

my mother knows.

page dividers, prom ticket, invitations, crimson's ad && lots more...
all due this week. wtf
I am dying out of suffocation.

the mother came to me all of a sudden and said ...

Wait, did you buy that dress for Prom?
It's not PROM-mish at all, are you sure ?

WTF, even you can see that ? Can I get a new one then ?
No *smiles sneakily* you're not gonna win anyway, what's the point?

damn potong I tell you -.-

Wednesday, July 2, 2008


A new addition to the family :]
arrived today, wheeee.
loves the father banyak-banyak :)

today :)


phone games

Recently installed a few games into the phone.

yes, one of my new games :]
Try installing it.
Interesting gilerr.
oh, the NFS ProStreet is damn fun too.
I was playing it the whole time in tuition yesterday wtf.
Chunted gilerr, I beat all the high scores.

mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen

bangga sial.

NFS - Need For Speed.

I have always loved car racings.
surprising much eh ? :P

another hint dropped.




I'm trying to sleep early these days.
lastnight I decided to send goodnight messages to some chosen people.

35 messages sent.

15 came back.
12 slept like babis.
8 got no credit to reply.

out of the 15 replies.
10 thought it's so UNBELIEVABLE I'm sleeping so early. wtf
4 replied with some goodnight wishes or smth.
1 called me crazy. *slaps*

out of the 12 sleeping beauties/hunks.

5 saw me in school and called me crazy for texting them.
3 more called me in the afternoon to ask me if I'm alright.
3 messaged me the next morning and apologized for not replying.
the other 1? laughed at me :(

Is it so unbelievable I'm sleeping early?
damn, I think some people are just mean.
I can be a good girl ... at times *flashes geeky smile*

okay. I am really going to bed now.
*waves like a mad girl*

Tuesday, July 1, 2008


"Master what bed ? no wait, wtf. You meant masturbate? "

"I don't like her, actually, I don't like everybody, I have a thing with hatred. "

"I think I am the opposite of cupid, you know ? Like I break people up a lot. wtf. I'm so mean. "

"For a moment or so, I actually thought she was pretty, then I came back to my senses and took back my words. If you think white-face-ghost is pretty, then she's the prettiest girl I've ever met. "

"I was a very sweet & innocent girl back then, like seriously. Then suddenly, I turned so mean & evil. Whetever happened to the once innocent Adelene? "

"I think I'll never love anybody as much as I love... myself. wtf? "

all the random things I said in these few days.
I think I'm self obsessed like crazy.

Today is such a sleepy day, I slept the whole day at home after school.

the father set some new rules for my pre-SPM days.
no partying till late hours.
no more excessive alcohol intake. WTF
no daily/weekly outing.

Yeah, I understand it's for my own good.
Therefore, I'm compromising with it.

just SPM
a few more months.