better in time

Night after night, I pretended to not be waiting and turn off the phone when you call. I wake up in the middle of the night just to realize you're not there anymore. I remember every word you said, every sentence you speak, everything we did.


I thought I left it all behind.
I thought it was gone for good.
I thought you vanished, for as long as I could remember.



but



Have you ever woke up one day thinking you have everything in the world and suddenly you're robbed off the happiness?

Have you ever pretended you're happy for months then to realize you weren't actually happy at all ?




I wanted to tell you,
as much as I wanted to,
I couldn't.




some words are better left unknown.

no, I'm fine.
just reminiscing.