holding on & letting go; you know?

Sometimes, we tend to push people away simply because we’re scared that if they stay, we might get too attached leaving some doubts that they’ll leave us soon so what we do is, we decide for them. We push them away even before we get attached, trying to lessen the pain it might cause. We push people away to not seem so vulnerable. 

We push people away even if we know we want them to stay. 

But hey, the ones who wants to stay will stay even if you push them away.

being strong & never losing control

Everything is ending soon & I won't be seeing you again for some time (or at all).

If only you knew how much I am going to miss you when you're gone. 

You mean so much to me, and for the past year, I've tried my hardest in showing you what I feel. I know you tried understanding but I guess that's what kills me, knowing we'll never share the same feeling. I always seem to get my hopes up, but there is no use anymore, considering you are the only one I want. 

The source to my happiness, my only light in the dark has just burn out, leaving me to just blend in with the cold darkness. The tears are beginning to fall as I write this. They pierce my skin like a knife, revealing all of the hurt and emotion I've been holding inside for so long. 

I just don't know what I'm going to do without you here.