all i ever wanted was to be truly happy

I woke up this morning and I began to cry.
I thought to myself, "Here I go again".
I woke up and thought to myself I need you, I miss you.
Why am I so dependent on someone else to make me happy?
It's horrible.
It should be my job and mine only, to make myself happy.
It's my job to fulfill my own needs, it's my job to take care of myself.
But, I can't.
I'm always relying on someone, I always need that shoulder to cry on, that pillar of strength.
Truth is we should be our own pillars of strength.