have you ever?

Have you ever woke up one day feeling all uneasy?

Like the night before, you were having the time of your life

& the next morning, you're awake all down (worried, sad, sick, etc...)

I'm pretty sure everyone went through that :|

it can't be just me, it's kinda bipolar, I think.

I still miss my home every now and then.

but I'll be here for the next few years

Guess I'll have to learn to adapt changes in life.

This week marks the second week of university.

I feel old, seriously, university makes me feel old :(

then again... :/

Sometimes when I sit alone in this room, I wonder if I made the right decision.

To leave the place I called home for the past 18 years.

To leave the island where most (95% of) my family & friends gather.

To leave the heavenly paradise of food.

To come to this place, so new, so unhomely.

To gain lifetime experiences of being independent.

To let the parents worry so much of their only daughter's safety and all.

Have I really made the right decision?

Is it worth it all?

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After all its just KL.

*convincingggggg*

like hello, its only 4 hours driving or 45 minutes plane, from Penang.

Why the hell am I making it sound like I'm leaving to UK or US wtf.

wtf am i thinking?

I already decided to come, why am i doubting my decision this time?

KL isn't so bad I guess.

but there's no place like home ♥ ♥ ♥

PS: I MISS GENTING's CHEECHEONGFUN ^^V

the peanut butter smell and taste, the softness in your mouth.

the paste of which you can barely smell the strong prawn paste.

GENTING CHEE CHEONG FUN FTW!! :((

to you from me ♥

Dear You,

I just have to tell you, I'm not so sure what I'd do without you. I know it's cold outside, but this late night is just no fun without you, and I just wanted to say thanks; you're the only reason I've smiled in days.

♥ Me

beginning

I'm trying to slowly get used to life here right now.

Very different from Penang but I'll get a hang of it soon enough I guess.

I miss everyone back in Penang tho :(

KL isn't all that glamorous, seriously.

being the first few to leave Penang definitely suck

macam the first experiment kat KL :P
lol (:

anyway, I'm just updating cause I realised I haven't been blogging for a while

I missed blogging :(

will probably blog more now that I'm away from all distractions

gotta run.

results came out

ha ha

i didn't fail

should be kinda happy right?

why am I not, at all?

:|

this is then

I just realised I haven't been updating my blog like I used to, last year, before SPM and all.

I do not really know why I just stopped, it's weird.

It's not like I'm totally busy :/

maybe I was, college, one year crash course, pre-university course = never easy :(

but I never regretted choosing SAM

ok this is suppose to be my come back post.

why?

because college ended, but no, I still don't get my long awaited holidays like I always say.

I am getting my results tomorrow, 6 am to be exact

after 11 months of studying, busy writing reports, doing assignments, tonnes of mini test and the MAJOR FINALS O.O

this is the time everyone is most afraid of

what we can do now is wish for the best and expect the worst

I'm actually an optimist but life sucks, you gotta add some pessimism to equalize it :P

I won't say I'll fair damn well

for now, I just hope to pass, I'd be really happy if i do :)

this year is coming to an end soon

like in a blink of the eye, its year end already :(

this year is definitely one of the best

this year :

1. I went for January intake despite the fact I told everyone January intake is for people who cannot wait to study -.-

2. I am maid-less, after 17 years of depending on maids, I'm finally maid-less.

3. I learned how to cook mee using a microwave (lame)

4. I got into my 1st accident

5. I met some amazing people

6. I sat in front of the comp for 16 hours straight doing assignment :(

7. I drifted and never die :P HAHAHAHAHAHAH

8. I turned legal =)

9. SAM NIGHT 2009 was made POSSIBLE :D and also SAM MAGAZINE ZOMG :P

10. I hiked up Penang Hill in the middle of the night :X

& etc etc :D

I can't believe its going to be over soooooooon!

arghhh.

anyway, I've been eating outside so much these days since my maid left.

I miss home made dishes, now I understand the important of homemade food.

*sighs

RESULTS IN 10 HOURS TIME. zzommmggggwtfbbqccbknnmcb :(

slit my wrist, cut my throat, take my heart.

MAKE ME BLIND :O i dare not look at the results laterrrrrrr :(

HELLO 2009, I have 16 more days with you.

I will miss you when you're gone, 2010 better be good :O

I'll blog more I guess :O

heheheheh. I'm like free, EVERYDAY :P

THROUGH OUT MY LIFE:

I've loved, I've lied,

I've hurt, I've lost,

I've missed, I've trusted,

I've made mistakes

but most of all,

I've learned

:)

SAM SAM SAM

SAM is over :(

what can I say?

It has been one of the best memories in my whole life.

I miss you SAM people already.

living by.

people lie. they say they have your back, but they really dont. if you're gonna talk, then back it up with your actions. don't just say one thing but really do another. think about peoples feelings for one time in your life. shit kills. people take things personally. you really can't expect anything from anyone. they're just going to let you down one way or another. don't ever let your guard fall, even if you think you can trust someone. the only person you can 100% trust is YOURSELF. no one else will understand you completely. people suck. end of story. trust no one, depend on yourself, don't get hurt.

ohlala

its freaking 4am.
I'm sitting in front of the laptop.
listening to the those melancholic songs.
reminiscing, I feel myself tearing.

I am a happy person, generally, I don't turn emo :/
oh well.

9 tryouts.
3 sbs
none worked out.

you did the most amazing job by stalling all 12 choices.
I think you're still irresistible after all these years.

OF oh OF, don't play anymore.

SAM 09 I

the times we just sit down & talk about nothing.
the times we kept laughing over the lame things we said.
the times we try to make one laugh w/ Kumar's jokes.
the times we'll just stare at each other, wondering where & what to eat.
the times we are always there to celebrate each & everyone's birthday.
the times where we always make an effort to make everyone feel special.
the times we will always wait for everyone's food to come before feasting.
the times Kylie will always be having her camera almost everytime & everywhere she goes.
the times when the drivers start drifting and racing, BROAD DAY LIGHT!
the times we had, all good & bad, it is all memorable.


how I am going to miss being a SAM student.
the ever most noisy class, everrrrrrr, in Disted.
& the course where everyone is close to everyone.

I am proud to be one of SAM09.
I will definitely miss everyone when this end, even if I don't talk much to some.
I will always miss the Moral & M'sian Studies classes together.
our one whole big family :D


this is just another chapter of life, right? :)