enlighten me//

hey, where are you now?
at home *long pause* why?
nothing, just asking. you hungry?
umm, xiu xiu lor.. (a little bit)
lei yiu sek siu yeh mou? (want to eat supper?)
no, it's late. you should stay at home more often. always come out at night.
but..
stay at home lah, I'll kau tim (settle) myself.
but I'm... nevermind, forget it. bye
*hangs up & drove away angrily*

sometimes I should learn to control my anger.
I end up taking the supper for him back home.
I wanted to throw it away.
but I waited one hour for it.
so yeah, his-one-hour-waiting-supper which is no longer his is now in the refrigerator.

an old flame friend came back.
I missed the old times.
it feels like deja vu again.

thought of the day ;

there's no reason for me to stay online when you're offline.


shit, I'm getting more and more dependent on you.
Everything I do, everyday, find its way to relate to you.
Every time someone mention your name, I can feel my heart beating faster.
Sometimes I sit in front of the laptop for hours, waiting for you to sign in.


I shouldn't depend so much on you.
The thought of not being able to see you during the weekends makes me cringe.
I do not favour weekends :(

You're one big sugar rush.
My sugar rush, literally.

another love story

I’ve got a mind boggling,
sense numbing, heart pounding,
stomach flipping,
take-my-breath-away,
head-over-heels,
knee shaking, daydreaming,
butterfly fluttering crush on you

&&

I can't stop smiling after I talk to you
and I still get butterflies in my stomach
and that huge smile across my face every time I see you.
that lets me know you will always mean something to me.


Fine - I admit it.
You are the guy I can't stop thinking about.
The guy who makes me wanna scream.
The one who can make my day in a million ways.
The one I write my love quotes about.
In case you were wondering,
That guy is you.


You got that sexiness, I just can't put my finger to it. Something about you, the way your hair lies on your head, the way you walk, or the way you talk. I feel my heart racing whenever you walk in my direction or look at me with such piercing eyes, I almost fall over, you make me lose my balance and act like a fool, in front of everyone.


And when I first met you,
I never would have imagined I would have such strong feelings for you.
I never would have thought that I would dream about you,
or miss being by your side,
or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name.
When I first met you, I never would have thought that
I would fall in love with you, this much.


You grab my attention when you walk into the room.
It could be midnight and I'm still thinking of you.
I cannot control the feelings you got me going through.

&&

Boy ;
You have the most adorable eyes I could ever fall for,
& the cutest smile that took my breath away;
You have the ability to make me laugh every time you speak
& when I look at you it's hard to turn away.



technically
You're that boy man I sort of fell in love with.

♥

completed <3

I called you today.
You answered with a hello.
I almost stopped breathing for a second.
You asked if I was alright.
I giggled.
You laughed at the other side.
I asked if you're coming.
You said you're in the car already.
I heard you starting the engine.
You asked if I'm done.
I said yes and told you to drive safely.
We both hung up.

I could not stop smiling to myself after.
I kept looking out, waiting for you to arrive.
It gets me all hyped when I see you.
You talked to them as I walked pass you.
We exchanged glances.
My knee weakens at your sight.

boy
♥ my day is complete ♥


♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

to You.

you think I don't know what you did in Facebook?
you really think I'm so clueless about EVERYTHING?
why can't you just get over it?
I respected you, right, respected.
now? screw you.

I am not born to please everyone, especially not you.
I pretended to be clueless so you can put everything behind.
Right then when I thought you were over it, you start screwing it up more.
Guess what. You've lost my respect for you, even as an acquaintance.
I always thought you're more logical than this, more rational too.
Never knew you'd do such acts.
Oh well.


goodbye, stranger.
we've been ignorant for far too long.
it's time you can finally free from pretending to be a friend.
You blocked. I quit. We all lost, in a way.


*beams*
I'm not angry, I'm not sad.
I am actually more relieved.

I Miss You

I miss you, when something really good happens, you're the first one I want to share it with.
Because I miss you when something is troubling me, you're the only one who would've understand.
Because I miss you, when I laugh and cry, you're the only one who could make me laugh harder and make my tears disappear.
I don't know where we went and why we grew apart, but you should know,
I miss you.

picspamII

I said April have been a birthday celebrations month didn't I?
I know I am too lazy to update on those day itself so I'll just post some pictures of it.
I'm too lazy to even upload all the pictures now -_-
kill me, I'll just put one of each day :P HAHA.


FlorenceLim's 18th, on the 16th of April.


DarylChin's Eighteenth on the 18th of April


Sofia V's Surprise Birthday on the 23rd of April.


BobLim's 18th Birthday Bash on the 28th of April.

mid of May

I don't care about your judgment.
I don't care about your wild imagination.
I don't care what you tell him/them.
I can feel your insecurities even if you're far away from me.
Tell me now, why do you think I walked away in the first place?
boy, you're so confusing, but its okay.

So yeah, I have not been updating a lot since last month.
April was filled with birthday celebrations (:
May was filled with lots of actions and heart2heart talks.
Today marks the half month of May and I'm already tired/sick of it.
I do not really favour this month, suffocation, misunderstandings, farewells.
It scares me to know college is ending soon, too.
6 more months to go and we are all going separate ways.

What to study ?
Where to study?
To stay in Malaysia or move to a total foreign country?
decisions here and there.

Malaysian Studies finals on Tuesday and I can barely recall anything about it.
Mid term is coming too, somewhere around mid of June.
So many things to do, so little time.
back to the old days, gotta start burning the midnight oil soon =/

Anyway, good luck to all students having their midterm/finals now, high school, colleges & universities.
ALL, GOOD LUCK *big smiles*
sorry if I'm a little too late ;b

I hope IT gives you Hell.

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell