What would I have done without you

All along I thought you were the one

The one I could rely on
The one to hold me through my darkest moments
When I finally realise we were drifting apart,
You were long gone,
far away from me, from us
from the promises we've made.
What's there left for me to hold on to
when she was the one you think 'bout day & night?

Who am I to you?

1 year, 12 months, 365 days,
8760 hours, 525600 minutes,

31536000 seconds

& there we are,

standing apart from each other.

walking opposite sides

leading another bittersweet life.

..of memories of you & me.

no pain compares to your sweet kisses that haunts me everynight.

fuck. I'm getting all emo. DAMNNN!

Make me smile, again...

Grrr,
there's no love in a 16 years old.
there's no true love, no pure love.
in lust and/or desperation, there is love & sex.

KILL ME, I'm crapping too much

walalala.

Last Saturday, Annual Training Camp in school.

Reached school at 7 ' something.

They checked our bags & everything.
Went to put our bags in our class

We shared the class with Patrol 7, Florence's patrol.

Regina's too. wheeee :)

First meal of the day, kaya bread & a glass of milo.

After that, morning exercise

then bla bla bla

I don't really remember

haha.

Second meal of the day ; ICE CREAM, rainbow ones :) yummy

after eating, we had to go to Science Garden

tied our lashings

had our competitions

then here comes the third meal of the day ; NASI LEMAK

after that, we had pioneering

they gave us six bamboos to do anything we want

Our patrol was the most creative

we were just building an ampaian, ended up with a flagpole, a shoe rack, food rack, BRA&PANTY rack. HAHAH

others did good too.

then the fourth meal of the day ; potato soup :D

After that rest for a while then it was CABARAN time

wahh, syok, paling exciting! heh ;]

There was this game where we have to squeeze my patrol [12 people] in TWO PIECES OF NEWSPAPER.

2 PAPERS ONLY OKAYYY? we succeeded :D

then we have to make human pyramid on muddy water

& a lot more

the most memorable one is the one & only...

.... MUD CRAWL !

hahaha, I tasted the mud water, daymn!

But it was nice, not the mud water. the whole cabaran experience

hahaha, we had to bathe IN PUBLIC OKAY

hahaha we *censored* *censored* in public!

Regina, Ying Shu, Florence & I *censored* our *censored* and *censored*

lol. okay this is funny. HAHAHA
I copied Regina's way of writing.

wala la la

Then it was night, campfire time,

I destroyed our performance

shit wei, no preparation AT ALL

then free dance, me & tiff were shaking & dancing & jumping almost all the time

had so much fun

running around, dancing.

Guess what? I didn't eat at all -___-"

I was too busy & too lazy to eat.

tsk tsk tsk

at the end of the day

vained with Nicole but still end up with no pictures

hahahah

btw, my patrol won BEST PIONEERING

I'm so god damn happy aight?

Nicole's patrol won BEST DISCIPLINE

Florence's patrol won BEST PERFORMANCE

Zi Xin's patrol won BEST OVERALL

Congrats all winner :D

wheeeeee...

will update tomorrow on Sunday's outings

sheesh. LAZY LAZY -___-"

Modem was destoryed. Internet went down, brother's hard drive crashed.
Gonna blog more bout the outings tomorrow when I'm free kayy? :D

I promised the videos of our dance right?
It was a mess, thanks to me.
So, just ignore the mistakes. teeheee.
Don't ask which one is me :P

Last week have been busy. staybacks, NIE rush, Teacher's Day preparation.
Horrorlistic. I don't take much pictures you see. so this is gonna be a dull update.
Wednesday, stayed back to practise dance & created some new steps
Went home around something with Regina.
Came home then started sleeping till I missed my dinner.
Thursday, stayed back again & before that was rushing our NIE posters & writing all the expenditure & budget.
Zi Xin & I went peeping the others paper & found out. most of them drew it.
Only a few printed, so there might be chances we might even win, the merit awards.
I ain't that ambitious to win the grand prize :)
I know myself well enough.
After rushing all the work, we finally finished writing after 45 minutes standing & holding the dang heavy school bag in the staff room
stupid ? *grrr..*
Practised our dance till 5 somethin', our legs went so soreeeee
& I mean really really sore.
Went back & prepared for tuition.

Friday, Teacher's Day
Went to school & practised our dance in the class
Changed & went to the hall to watch before performing.
okay, then it was our turn to perform.
It's scary, seriously.
I never liked performing on a stage, even on an open field is not that scary.
The dance was alright, I think =S I don't know.
I was the shortest midget -___-"
I screwed up, not that much, just a lil' (more than that) ..
Will post the video later :)

After all the performances, it was PARTY TIME.
Reminder no 1, somebody broke the window. HAHAHAH
Reminder no 2, that somebody almost broke the door too.
Reminder no 3, Venne ate 6 or 7 rounds of food without stopping.
Reminder no 4, 4T, 4M, & 4C all came to my class for dancin.
Reminder no 5, teachers have to dance before leaving the class.
Yes, Pn Chua, Pn Lim, Pn Hooi & Mr Hooi danced.

oh, how sporting can they get ? *grins*

I love them all. *smooches*
After all the eating, it's time to burn some calories.
Dance, dance ! Yeah, it was hell lots of fun.
The highlight of the year, well the only day we get to do whatever we want.
After 12.30, went home & sleep then double tuition.

Saturday, it's a school day.
Dragged my ass to the school compoud for the sake of getting my Mathematics' results, even after my dad convinced me just to sleep at home.
then, DAMN, she just gave us our objective :(
I wanted the whole thing so I won't have to worry anymore.
But she said, once we get our subjective paper, it'll ruin our Saturday
She end up lying to us?
went home & sleep. He kept calling, I couldn't sleep in peace. *Screw you*
Woke up around 6 something, dressed up & went for dinner with my family & dad's friends.
Went to some little malay restaurant in Tanjung Bungah
My mum went obsessing the tomyam *nyek nyek*
After dinner, wanted to go to the G Party since Chun Kit is there,but....
There's always a but, lol, but, I don't have transport back :(
So end up, my dad's friend wanna go UPR, went there & my parents disappeared -___-
left me all alone there, called Lynn & met up then we went MOMO.
wheeeee :D then my brothers somehow appeared in there too.
They went off with their friends, & the next thing I know,
I'm on my bed the next morning having a heavy headache.


That didn't stop me from going Tesco & Queensbay :D
Went for groccery shopping in Tesco then brunch in Queensbay.
Sushi is contagious. Beware !
Went to the newly opened Quiksilver, polka dots bikini!
waaaa, I was captivated.

me ; mummy

Mummy, OMG, so niceeeeeee ! I want laaa
Want what? Your body very nice is it? Buy also you won't wear.
NICE laa weihh. I will wear if you actually buy for me!
You go dream laaa. Your daddy coming d, let's go.
*pouts*

Yeah, see ? That's how I'm treated when I wanna buy something :(
Pitiful sia. After that, went home & rest. I started thinking of my 4 moral essays.
Called somebody to help, guess what he said -__-
Independant girl, don't depend on others, do yourself ! Actually I wanted you to help me with my Maths also, kekekeke.
-____- see that. I'm like jinxed ! :(
Went to gym after that, came back, dad told me they're going Gurney.
I was so tired, still gotta drag myself there since it's Fathers' Day
After roaming in Gurney, we went to eat in some place in somewhere. LOL
I don't know where actually. Hmmmmm, but the food was finger licking good :D
After that, fondue time :) wanted to go Haagen Daaz but it was full
So went to Ice Ice Baby instead. Ordered some desserts
& there goes my diet plan.
abis laaa gained weight like crap d :P
Went home later, then went out to a friend's party at 11 somethin' in UPR
then they changed to the hotel near there, city bayview or something
grrr, made me wait like madwoman !
came home around 4 something, I didnt know how to unlock the doors & stuff
Had to call my brother from the house to open up everything for me
*shakes head* I'm hopeless. HAHA
Didn't sleep again, watched TV till 6 somethin'

Showered & went to school.
Venne didn't come to school, no more jokes to laugh. Hahaha
Got my Accounts Marks, I passed ! :D yay!
& Moral, it sucked, real bad. HAHA -___-
Came back from school & slept till 6 something.
Tuition at 8.30, Addmaths. Blarghhh.
Finished my graph homework. yay.

Finally. one completed post :)

The following post will all the pictures.

I'm too lazy to update them here now.

A birthday shout out to my dearest, Victor Tan




happy 27th 21st birthday kay?

I remembered your birthday xD

tiu. knn. fuck. mcb

so bloodyfuggin' pissed. Damn it. I don't know who to blame or whatever, seriously, it's really dumb, I'm 16 years old, not 3 years old. I know how to take care of myself. I know how to independant. Grrr.

I didn't sleep continuosly for 36 hours yesterday so I slept really early lastnight, 1 am. This is gonna be a very hectic week, damn it. I'm going uberly nuts with school, there's Teachers' Day this Friday then ODTC on Sat, NIE's deadline is like tomorrow? What the fuck ? Oh yeah, audition for Teachers' Day is tomorrow too -___-"

I'm so exhausted, I need to break away from everything, 23rd oh 23rd I really wanna go to the bloggers' meet.... but.... but.... grrrr, I just can't. DAMN IT! School is nuts, results is f'edup, I got like 40 something for Bahasa Malaysia & Sejarah, not that I didn't expect it, I was just hoping for a little miracle to happen but... damn it, it did not. I was sort of disappointed with my History, honestly, I studied real hard for it. But I end up screwing up, not in paper 2 but paper 1, the bloody fuggin' objective part. Am I stupid or what? Oh yeah, I'm improving in Econs, yay for me!


Oh, I stayed back for dance just now, end up choosing "Like A Boy" by Ciara. Yeah, too impossible ? HAHHA we made it possible, oh well, 2 minutes dancesteps in less than 3 hours, boy, I'm so proud of the Scandalians ! yippeee :)


All black for tomorrow's dance, the boys-girls are wearing all white, we girls-girls are wearing all black. Tomorrow's Uniform day, gotta tuck into the green Rangers uniform again, it's so fuggin' hot alright.

Blargh, my legs are sore due to the dance practise. Seriously, tomorrow's audition, we just started learning today. Gotta work extra hard hmmm?

this is my dearest scandalians - picture taken Nov2006.

look how much we've changed in just a few months. My dance partners, best friends, alter egos, sisters & everything else...

I woke up, I saw him standing on the balcony, he was wearing the shirt I bought him for Valentine's. He looked thinner, he must have not been eating well.

I wanted to call out for him but words won't come out, he turned around.

"You're awake, your mother let me in," he walked in and sat next to me.

All I could do was just smile at him, I couldn't say a word.

"I miss you, so very much.... " he hold my hand and look into my eyes

"I miss you too "

Tears rolled down my eyes as I was hugging him.


And I woke up, having tears in my eyes. It was all just another dream.





Does every good things come to an end ? I don't know, ask Nelly Furtado.

It's fuggin' 3.30 am, I'm still wide awake. Tell me, how to you sleep early?
I tried listening to classic, reading History text books, watching an old movie, cycle for 30 minutes, etc etc... and I don't feel sleepy at all.
Mum reminded me tomorrow I'm going back to school so I better finish up my homework.
Guess what ?

I don't even know what homework I have -___-

I'm dead, officially dead.


I finally finished the NIE posters, after 2 weeks.
Wheeeee, I'm satisfied with the second one but not the first one.
Blargh, I saw my old kindy crush today in Celebrity Fitness.
Damn, he's god-damn-charming-and-hot now.
I'm feeling really lucky but I can't sleep.
Grrr, just added a shoutout.
They have beautiful & charming people there.
All the nice and friendly people.
Get your own shout out to join us !

I miss having him around.

TOP TWENTY REASONS WHY CHOCOLATE IS BETTER THAN SEX:

1. You can GET chocolate.

2. "If you love me you'll swallow that" has real meaning with chocolate.

3. Chocolate satisfies even when it has gone soft.

4. You can safely have chocolate while you are driving.

5. You can make chocolate last as long as you want it to.

6. You can have chocolate even in front of your mother.

7. If you bite the nuts too hard the chocolate won't mind.

8. Two people of the same sex can have chocolate without being called nasty names.

9. The word "commitment" doesn't scare off chocolate.

10. You can have chocolate on top of your workbench/desk during working hours without upsetting your work mates.

11. You can ask a stranger for chocolate without getting your face slapped.

12. You don't get hairs in your mouth with chocolate.

13. With chocolate there's no need to fake it.

14. Chocolate doesn't make you pregnant.

15. You can have chocolate at any time of the month.

16. Good chocolate is easy to find.

17. You can have as many kinds of chocolate as you can handle.

18. You are never too young or too old for chocolate.

19. When you have chocolate it does not keep your neighbors awake.

20. With chocolate size doesn't matter; it's always good

Damn, I have to say bravo for those who thought of that.
I was laughing so hard I fell off my chair.
This is soooooo cute.

I'm too lazy to update as holidays are almost over

grr. I need to start finding my books now.

;)

Queensbay

And so, yesterday, Gina & I went Queensbay at around 11.

Everywhere also discount !
We went searching for a bag for my mother's birthday.
End up, I bought myself a bag instead *nyeknyek*

& a few more..

We went Borders after that, bought a magazine
Then we went to the Starbucks there for a drink

waited for Tiff & ZiXin to find us.
Later after they came, we went to Vince & Co again.
shop, shop, shop then Janice came to meet us in Vincci

After buying my mum's bag, we went roaming around.

Then ZiXin's friend, Sheena from KL came & joined us.
Lunch in Secret Recipe *yummy*

SHOPPING spree again after eating xD

from Elianto to Bonita to Elements to *don't know what shop*LOL to Stefeno to Nichii, Nose & Espirit then we reached a final stop, MNG

My brother called saying his class finished & he's coming to fetch me *grrrr, GERAM*

Gina followed me to Starbucks *again -___-* to wait for my brother
vained while waiting *that's what girls do best (: MUAHAHAHAHAH*

that girl snapped my pic while I was taking her pic xD

texting MingYeng horh? *tsk tsk tsk*

The my brother came, went home & rest.

At night, we went to Tao for dinner *drools*

saw Ee Mei working there *waaa, I miss you girl!*

We had sake & we were all bloated.

Parents went home & the young ones all went continue drinking.

Finally after so loooooonnnggg of not drinking xD

We headed to SOHO, drink, drank, drunk, yeah.

Came home early (:
Online & still manage to stay up till 4 something.

At least I was still sober..

syoksendiri

birthday shoutout (:

4th June

A Birthday shoutout to my dearest & loveliest MUMMY



and Janice :)

Love both of them to bitss *smooches*

FUNNY

Just now, Gina came online & talked to me.

Gina ; me

1st Part

Did you go Gurney just now ?
Yes, at 6 -_-"
So did you miss the whole thing?
Yeah, but I went to Chili's for dinner
Chilis ? All spicy food ?
-__-

2nd Part

Why you going home so early tomorrow?
'cause I'm going back at 4 lor
That's why I'm asking you why -_-
oh LOL, 'cause my bro finishes college at 4!
LOL this is so funny, I'm gonna post it up!
I can fetch you back
Post what up?
our convo laa
Tiff's & Zi Xin's convo? POST! I wanna see
our meant you & me
ooh. why?
cause you're freaking hilarious!
-___-


it's freaking 2AM, I can't sleep
If a bottle of Heineken would beautifully pop out right in front of me,
that will be superbly heavenlike ^^

TORTURE

Finally, after 7 days of torture. I'm finally free, the clock just struck twelve, it's officially 7 days. I'm proud to say my diet plan is finally over ! Never in my whole life have I eat vegetables for the whole day & yes, I just broke that record.

my beloved broccolis.


On Friday, I was forced to eat six tomatoes thanks to the menu & my amazingly smart mother suggested to make tomato juice out of it without sweetener or anything & that was miserable, the juice turn out awful. HA HA HA.

For now, I fear seeing any tomatoes. It scares the crap out of me.

Awww, maybe an exception for this cute one ;)