Dreams

Dreams, I was reading Aaron's post on his dreams coming to reality last Saturday
And it hit me right that night -___-

No, nothing bad happened to anybody.
It's just embarrassing to have the exact same dream like the person you dreamt of.
What's worst, a bloody hot sexy wet dream.



muahahahha! wild, crazy sex ehh :p


After talking to him, we were having the exact same dream with all the same acts okay.
LOL, I won't go in detail what happened but honestly, it's just surprisingly weird.
How can two different human being which is so far apart from each other
have the exact same dream on the same time with the same person.

Goodness. I feel so berdosa now for having such a dream.
Although he was really hot in the dream *drools*
super duperly hot ! *dreams*


*i hope he's not reading this right now*



I'm obsessed with tea now.
Worst still, tea during school hours.
I feel so freaking sleepy after drinking tea.
Weird thing is, I feel super duperly awake when I drink tea at night.
Am I abnormal ? or is it perfectly normal ?


I'm not emo, I'm just miserably depressed.
Screw it.

I was gonna update today's post with the friends thingy but laziness kicked in.
My mood went dead after a while.
My playlist was shuffling & it stopped on that song.


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From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you


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This song brings back lots of memories.
Both good & bad...
It have been half a year since we turned you and me,
I remember you telling me it doesn't matter what happened in the past
What's happening now is what matters most :)



Life is amazing ever since you walked in my life.
When you walked away, my whole world turned upside down.
It took a while for me to get used to not having you anymore.
Well for now, I will learn to live without you.
To survive in this reality without having you to guide me through.
I will never forget all those moments when you were there to help me.

If you never came into my life, I won't be standing here
If only I could turn back time, I'd believe you with all my heart & soul
Maybe I'm just better off not knowing the truth.
Sometimes lies will always gonna sound sweeter than the truth.
No matter what hardship I face in the future,
I'll remember all the lessons you've taught me throughout the whole year :)
The midnight SMSes,
Those hugs & kisses,
The warmth you gave me,
The time when you waited near Mrs Chong's house so I can see you,
The time I walked all the way from Heng Ee to Japanese Garden when you told me you're dating another beautiful girl (violin),
The time when you actually offered to walk me home when I missed my bus,
All those promises,
All the 'i love yous', 'i miss yous', 'i need yous', '....forever'
You're always going to be a part of me.




EMO! -_____-




Damn it. I'm being very the EMO these few days.
I am irritated with myself.
My moodswings are getting worst.
Only he can tolerate with it -___-

School is pissing me off.
I like Maths, I like Add Maths.
Now, I can't focus in class during both these subjects at all.
Whenever she start teaching, I look at her like she's talking Danish or something like that.
I don't understand what she teaches at all.
I am depending fully on my Sir now.
Thank God I have private tuition for Add Maths.
Or not, I think I'll get an egg for all my papers :
Enough of rambling.
Need to run :)



Will update again soon, I PROMISE! :D



*sings*

When you walk away, I count the steps that you take, do you see how much i need you right now,
When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too
When you're gone, the words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it OK
I miss you

We had a talk today.
How To Be An A Star Student
by Kumar Something Something

He was funny, that Kumar guy.
He looked like somebody who crawled out from the comic.
He kept showing the all funny acts.
Esp the part where he goes
"Put your hands up now! Now, pat your friends in your front, left & right
and say GOOOOOD MORNING A STAR STUDENT"
His gestures & movements were so indescribable.

I feel useful lately.
Finished the Horror & Fantasy House plan on last Thursday
Both parties agreed, and for now we gotta wait for the bamboo.
We need to raise fund agaaiiinnnn to pay for all the things we need to buy.
I went up to the hall just now, using the primary way.
It felt really eerie, like somebody is watching you.

Like there's a pair of eyes stalking you from far.

When I was walking up the stairs,
the wind was blowing me from behind & everything flew across.
The cupboard couldn't close & kept making that scary sound.
And when I'm in the SPBT Room,

the door banged & the steel door locked by itself.
The ceiling fan turned by itself even when the electricity was down.
It was pretty screwed -____-
Luckily I was there with somebody
or I would have cried like a baby & pee on my pants.

It rained heavily when school end today.
I walked under the rain.
Suddenly, memories came floating back to my brain.
All the under the rain moments with :)
*sighs*
I shouldn't be thinking of all these.

Grrr.
I'm sorry...
I dare not reply.
I couldn't bring myself to talk.
I feel bad for ignoring.
How I wished we could talk again, like normal.
It's hard to pretend I got over it.

kaulah segalanya,
yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
hanya satunya yang kucintai
sambutlah cintaku
jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
cintaku padamu ikhlas sejati

Here's another tag from SaeWei, my last tag :D muahahah I dont owe any tag to anybody now. lalalala ~

Ten things that I hate

1. Food you hate ;
I don't really like Thai food, they're all very spicy. Not that I can't eat spicy food, I don't like having spicy food all the time. Variety maaa :)

2. Fruits that you hate ;
I can't recall any fruit I hate currently :(

3. Veggies that you hate ;
I don't like every vegetable that's bitter. Count me out if you're a vege lover :

4. Celebrities or people that you hate ;
That boyfriend stealer whore! , Vanessa Hudgens and etc etc

5. Event/Incident/Situation that you hate ;
Being in a relationship with somebody who cheat behind my back with my best friend.

6. TV Shows or Movies that you hate ;
I don't like shows or movies where they have no ending -___-" pathetic and dumb.

7. Type of Music that you hate ;
I listen to every genre.

8. Household chore that you hate ;
Well, I never do chores, not once in my life. They don't trust me with chores :p

9. Things you hate about the world ;
Nuclear weapons, wars and having innocents killed for no reason.

10. Things that you hate about yourself ;
Brain & Body. I need to be wiser, smarter & curvier -___-

Not tagging anybody today.
Muahahha I'm feeling all nice today.

8 Weird Facts About me

Tagged by Sae Wei :) Ahh, I'm doing my tags tonight since I'm too busy to blog bout shits in school -__-"


8 Weird Facts About ADELENE TAN

1. Alcohol boost my energy. I am very energetic when I start drinking, but it only applies to Heineken & Vodka :)

2. I like collecting bikinis. Not that I wear them everyday, but I like collecting them.

3. I cry whenever I hear an overly happy/sad song.

4. I think gays are cute, certain gays. I don't discriminate gays! :)

5. I used to have an imaginary partner when I was standard 3.

6. I bite my nails in my dreams -____-

7. I am a sucker for guys who can play the piano. It might sound gay, but I've always prefered piano over guitar :)

8. I don't believe in ghost but I believe spirits are everywhere, around us.

I'm not gonna tag anybody.
Too lazy to tag anybody :p
walala

Tagged by Satkuru for the whole SHOUTOUT a week ago -___-"

LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : Adelene
Birth Date : November 6
Current Status : Single
Eye Colour : Brown
Hair Colour : DARK Black
Right or left : Right

LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage : Chinese?
My Fears : Clowns
My weaknesses : I'm soft hearted to certain people
My Perfect Pizza : Hawaiian Chicken or Aloha

LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : Did I sleep? o.O
My bedtime : Haven't been sleeping since Monday, usually around 2am - 3am
My most missed memory: Bedtime stories during kindy days :)

LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or coke : Neither
Single or group dates : Single
Adidas or Nike : Nike
Tea or Nestea : Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla : Strawberry
Cappuccino or Coffee : Neither :(

LAYER 5 : DO YOU…
Smoke : Did. when I was young&dumb.
Curse : Yes.
Take a shower : Yes
Have a crush : Crush, infatuation? :)
Think you’ve been in love : Of course.
Go to school : Yup.
Want to get married : Yes
Believe in yourself : I am confident.
Think you’re a health freak : Not really. I get sick almost once every week, screw the weather.

LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol : Yes, still do
Gone to the mall : Definately.
Been on stage : Urm, yes
Eaten sushi : HAHA, YES :D
Dyed your hair : Highlighted:)

LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER…
Played a stripping game : Strip POKER, yes
Changed who you were to fit in : Yes

LAYER 8 : AGE YOU’RE HOPING…
To be married : Anytime after 28.

LAYER 9 : IN A GUY/GIRL
Best eye colour : Blue :)
Best hair colour : dirty blonde with some brown :]
Short hair or long hair : Short, spikey:)

LAYER 10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING…
A minute ago : Thinking of how to build my Plan
Hour ago : Stressing my brain with Add Maths
1 day ago : was harrassed by some buggers.
1 month ago : In & out of the house like a hotel
Year ago : was deeply in love

LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES…
I love : him
I feel : obese
I hate : them
I hide : it from them :)
I miss : itu orang!
I need : extra cash.

LAYER 12 : TAG PEOPLE
Anyone who wants to do it

13th July, Friday

Went to school, after school, stayed In school.

Rachel drew henna for me on both my hand & my left leg :D

Didn't manage to take picture before the henna came off

it's so THUGism lol :D

After that, we went St. Nicholas.

Helped cut & sort addresses of every states.

It gets irritating when the aircond kept blowing my papers :(

After that, went back school & waited for somebody to fetch me home.

Reached home, took my bag & went for tuition straight.

After tuition came back, ate my dinner & showered.

Went for Accounts tuition again.

then, after tuition, sent my brother off to Genting :)

came home, shouted & sleep.

HECTIC DAY!

14th July, Saturday

hmmm, woke up at 11 something,

followed my parents to Balik Pulau eat hokkien mee & laksa :)

me in the car, scoping -____-

They dropped me in Gurney after a while

Went to meet him :)
saw the beautiful Mini Cooper there :)

Tempting, beautiful.

We watched Die Hard 4.0

He had to accompany me shopping! Haha :)
After a while, we went to eat our lunch in Fish & Co.

mine

his.

We went to walk around Gurney Drive

then he fetched me home :)

Reached home then have to accompany parents out for dinner again

Walala :D

Came back around 11 something

Lynn PPK me for Ryan!

No MOMO for me :(

15th July, Sunday

Woke up at 7 something

Went to eat somewhere in Pulau Tikus

I saw him walking pass! OMG

teeheee.

Came back home & online till God knows when.

Both brothers came home today from Genting

I saw all the food they bought *drools*

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Ahhhh. I have alot to post about stuff.

Gosh, so many things happening these days.

Damn it.

Will blog bout it later, if I have time.

Toodles people :)

Just came back from gym :(
I'm tired as hell
Sir cancelled my tuition today cause he's still not feeling well
Blargh, Regina is not coming to tuition later.
I'm dead, I'm gonna be all alone :(
I hate being alone !
Ah, I need B :(

Open Day is today, school was filled with cars.
Cars, many of it. So packed okay.
Lucky my mother came yesterday and took my results.
It was horrible, never in my life have I got such low average before :(
Teacher told mummy, "She always fly to US and never come back. I have to pull her then only she can come back."
LOL. Do you understand her?
Hahaha, she was trying to tell my mother I never focus in class.
Something as simple as that can sound so complicated too at times *shakes head*
My dad was furious when he saw my results -___-
But he was too busy watching football, so he didn't say much.

I guess it's time for me to do something.
Gotta cut my time going out, day and night.
Gotta cut coming online so much
Gotta start taking books back to revise
Gotta read more BM novels -____- [i suck in it]

*sings* kasihku, sampai di sini, kisah kita, jangan tangisi keadaannya, bukan kerana kita berbeda, dengarkan, dengarkan lagu ini, melodi rintihan hati ini, kisah kita berakhir di ... Januari.....





PS ; [I still miss you... a lot. I'm sorry this have to happen again.]

It's somebody's birthday today :) Yeah, it's her, the Miss World... from the bottom! HAHAH jokes :)

Happy Birthday VENNEZIA! :)

of Pink Panda & Speech :)

Surprising isn't it? Shout OUT again? HAH ! :D

Let me present you a bunch of pictures before starting my speech :) Enjoy...




Doodle this in school today :)


A closer look.


the closest you can see :)


I LOVE SHOUTOUT, I DO! :D


a list of appreciation :)



What I wanna say is that I've got a PINK PANDA! wheeeeee, 5000th SHOUTS! FINALLY... *smiles*

To all my beloved readers,friends, shouters & whoever that came across this post, GOOD EVENING! I'm assigned by ANGELINE, the first ever FEMALE who reached 5000th SHOUTS to write a speech with 4 paragraphs & 3 lines for at least one paragraph. So yeahhh.

I would like to thank LASKER & ELISE for inventing the amazing & greatest SHOUTOUT. Without you both, there would be no SHOUTERS, without shouters there would be no fun [in my life :P] ShoutOUT was invented quite long ago but it took me sometime to actually put it inside my blog [isk!how dumb of me to have not see it before.DUMB ADE!] I first saw ShoutOUT in Dragon Head's blog & I find it really cute. After much consideration I decided to put it inside my blog :)

ShoutOUT have grown bigger as time passes by, at least it shows a lot of people is appreciating this amazing invention :P wheee :) between, I would like to say, thank you to all the shouters who welcomed me with open hand & those that shouted with me when I was all alone :) Terima kasih banyak-banyak.

Oh, and I would like to admit, I'm addicted to ShoutOUT :( sheeesh...
Adelene without ShoutOUT is like,
egg without yolk,
sentencewithoutspaces,
char koay teow without koay teow,
breathing without air,
life without feelings... :D

I actually wanted to wait for the Pink Panda till tomorrow as tomorrow is my first month anniversary joining ShoutOUT
But then, I can't wait to get it so nevermind then :P lalala

I think I crapped enough for this speech. Sudah 4 paragraphs also d :) YAY


Btw, here's more pictures :)


:)


Contagious addicton, hmmmm


kisses to all.


here's my last syok sendiri picture for today :P

Today is 7th of July, LIVE EARTH CONCERT. Waaaaaa *breaks into tears* I'm missing the concert ! Grrrr! If I'm not mistaken, today is also the day they'll be announcing the new Seven Wonders of the World in Lisbon, Portugal.

But, I still don't know which one got chosen, I do hope Great Wall of China & Taj Mahal remains, it's Asian's PRIDE ! Teeheee :)

So yes, today is 07/07/07.

I've spent my 07:07:07 07.07.07 moment on my cosy queen sized bed with......









none other than.....









MY SAYANG! :)

my sayang accompanied me every day & night since 4 years ago. He was by myside through thick & skin, dry & WET, happy & sad, hot & cold, etc etc :P

wanna see my sayang ?
he's hot & sexy! very yummylicious! :P








My beloved SAYANG (:

I'm pretending it's 7.07 PM on the 7th JULY LOL :)
Good night people.

it's 2.30AM actually :P

Today I'll let the picture speak for itself kay? Too lazy to write :P

4th July, Wednesday

sarah&i before leaving school for Choral Speaking

the cut I got after buying Slurpee

Me drinking my slurpee :)

The Tan Sisters :)

quarter of the choral speakers.

me & Jan

me & Nicole

me, Jan, Tiff & Nicole.

Jan, me, Nicole, Florence & Tiffany

me & Evon

Sarah & I, again

Abalone from daddy's birthday dinner :D

5th July, Thursday [Daddy's Birthday]

Daddy's birthday cake, Chocolate TRUFFLE.

I'm doing my work when Regina took this :P

this is not a syok sendiri[SS] pic, Regina was taking OUR pic but only my face appeared :P

me & her.

6th July, Friday


Adelene in shades. Deyy! I look weird! grr:(

on the way to tuition

After tuition, first take. Grr, i look horrible!

Second take ; Okay, I look better than the first one :P

my confession ; I *heart* SHOUTOUT.

Happy Birthday DADDY! :)



i love you!

*hugs&kisses*

Today is 3rd again
How fast time really flies hmm?
We could have been 18 months already.
If only you know how much I still care...
Oh well, again like Nelly said, all good things come to an end, eventually.

One & a half year ago, they were walking hand in hand.
telling each other i love yous, i miss yous, i need yous, etc etc.
promises of forever were made,
a year later,
promises were broken,
words no longer meant anything,
how far did they go for this?
She walked away to ease her misery,
He stood there staring at her shadow slowly disappearing,
far away, she went,
leading her pretentious life,
reminiscing all their memories,
this love he took at his pleasures & desires,
turn them into scars & seizures.
Nothing matters to her, anymore.
She was made numb by him.
Taking in pains like breathing oxygen,
She needs him.
she loved him, she still do.


If only.. he knew.
He brought the biggest smile to her face by a simple greeting :)




I've slit my wrist for you,
I've shed my tears for you,
I've let myself down for you,
I've put my pride down for you,
I've done everything to secure you,


but you're still you & I'll always still be me.




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FACTS ABOUT ME


I like polka dots
I like stripes
I like metallic colours
I like bright colours
I like T-shirts with kinky words
I like miny skirts
I like stilleto high heels
I like bikinis
I like sexy things
I am brandconscious
I am selfish
I am fuggin' materialistic
I am greedy
I like collecting designer bags & purse
I am mean, very very mean
I am sweet, too :)
I want to be curvy
I give up very very very easily
I am a sucker for guys who play violin/guitar/piano/drum
I like guys(men) with wide general knowledge.
I get jealous when somebody gets more attention than me
I work well with numbers
I love Additional Mathematic but I still suck in it
I cry when I'm stressed
I doddle alot in school
I buy things I never really need
I like jiwang songs
I appear offline way too much in MSN
I don't like people who type L1k3 +h!5


and lots more..

lalala.
I'm finally done with one of my graphics.
I have one more subcover to do. YAY !
oh and a fuggin' front cover.
DIEDED!


I think I'll be sitting in front of the comp for like whole day & night
for today :(
*sighs*
Misery wei.
Today I have a sudden urge of partying.
when I say beach party I mean hot surfer hunks & sexy gorgeous babes.
Yeah, I'm dying to play some water sports too.
I won't call myself hot & sexy but I just feel like going to a beach party now.
Sheeshh. Whoever is organising a beach party, please put my name in your invitation list :P



Between to those who felt uhm weird I was actually so vulgaristic in my previous post
Sad to say, yes I am like that when I'm on angry mode.
Who isn't ? You tell me :P
HAH! At least I admit it xD
Some pretend to be oh-I'm-so-God-damn-innocent.
*slaps forehead* I go cuckoo everytime I see those people.





I'm cuckooing now. shit!

I am irritated, partly because of those annoying bunch of lil boys who irritated me just now.
Don't misunderstand me, I love kids.
But noisy lil boys who uses vulgar words and acts like a bloody sissy is an exception.
You see, I was sitting down nicely and talking to a friend.
Suddenly that sissyhead & his bunch of little boys suddenly screamed like some girls.
Then they were fighting, using a rattan throwing at each other
I got irritated as it flew to me but I kept my cool by not saying anything.
But they kept screaming, louder and louder seconds after seconds.
I have my limit alright. They cross it, so I said, keep quiet to that BUNCH OF SISSYHEADS.
Let me rephrase, I politely asked them to just keep quiet.
That sissyhead who talks the loudest suddenly scolded me & my friend
" You ASSHOLE, you got such a big ass like elephant it can't fit on the chair, assholes! "
That's what I got politely saying something.
My friend was pissed so she poured water at him
and he continued assholeing us & his bunch of sissyheads were scared.
They shut up but that main sissyhead, he can never shut up.
This time, my friend got really pissed off, she went up and pulled his ear.
Like what a mother will do when their son lie to her :P
After that, he still continued bitching bout us, nonstop.
Exactly like a bloody sissyhead.
His right ear was so red, he sulked & cried. Maybe peed on his pants too.
Pitiful little sissyhead! I didn't scold him, at all.
I was keeping quiet when he was assholeing. It was a god damn funny scene alright
You can see the look on his face, he is like damn fuggin scared he kept blabbering asshole.
I felt so accomplished when I see that look.
FUCK YES I am EVIL :P
so before he get down from the bus, he screamed
"Fucking bitch! You fucking assholes! Pukitiang!"
Imagine that coming out from a 7 years old boy.
That's not impulsive, that's pathetic, highly uneducated.
Inside my heart, I felt like screaming at him,
You fuggin kiddo, who tha fug do you think you are? You're also one fuggin bitch sissyheaded asshole.
knn, lanciaokia! grrr, mother pussy lil asshole!
I know I'm harsh on a 7 years old, at least I didn't scream at him alright.
I'm not as low as him :)
Seriously, I'm starting to wonder what is the teacher teaching in school these days.

Honestly, the first time I actually said something vulgar.
I was like 10 years old & I was aware of it.
But he's a bloody kiddo.
I wonder does he already watch porn too.
*smirks*
I wouldn't want to know.


Oh HAHA, my fever is going away.
My stomach problem is getting worst.
I need to go for a stomach checkup :D


&


I want to watch TRANSFORMERS!!

I LOVE SHOUTOUT.

You see that shoutOUT there?

wheee, it's my current addiction

It's contagious too.

It get addictive day by day.

DIEDed lorr.

:P

A new month, a new beginning :)

I feel sick yesterday, really sick, high fever. Karma? I guess so, lazy Adelene stayed on the bed the whole yesterday, almost got bitten by a dog when I was jogging, bad day I guess, after I came home, my whole body was dead tired :( I couldn't eat, drink, breathe. My body was just not functioning except the eyes & fingers. I texted Regina telling her I might be getting a heart attack, LOL !



She was asking me to get my ass to the hospital & do a medical check up before I suddenly die. Then I texted KEATYANG, my mr. HONEY (are you honoured to be featured here? teehee) He was telling me I won't die getting licked by a dog.

I was paranoid, hell yeah, I was.
It was scary, I fell ill all of a sudden after the dog licked me.


Damn, I was sleeping the whole time even when my parents & brothers went for dinner, after they came back, my mum checked my temperature & took me to the hospital.

Darn I hate the smell there, I was almost hospitalised. God, thank God my parents declined. I was saved :D I had to take 6 pills every 6 hours -____-"


My Transformer tickets was put into waste :(
Had to cancel everything since I'm sick
Dad wouldn't even allow me to go for the midnight show
sheeesshhh ;(
No Transformer for ADELENE. *kicks those who watched without me*




the oh-so-sick me :(

between, I bought a bikini last Tuesday
Pink & White stripes. Glittering one :P
I wanted gold, couldn't find it.
No it's not from ROXY :(
Sad, I know, it's from MNG

the pillow was trying to grow boobs too bad it didn't work
too well. XD

walala.

btw. I think I'm addicted to ShoutOUT.

Is it a good or a bad thing? :P

Birthday shoutout to all my beloveds.
dey. I just realised their names all begin with C -____-


22nd June

Celia & Caryn

23rd June

chunKit.

ps; I know I'm more than a week late, I'm sorry kayy! I realised I didn't post this post until I checked my blog just now. heh :)